SAPPY SATURDAY !

Well another Saturday..... another morning that I woke to to yet another horrifing dream. This time the dream was more about the hubby, rather than the kids, but I was crying and felt so alone and scared. I do not like this feeling. I pray this whole dream thing goes away. Some say they can be a premonition or a deep seeded fear. I am hoping for fear - I don't know if premonition is something I can go with ... or want to go with. I have heard pregnancy spawns dreams, which, I hope is so - because this whole reoccuring thing is getting OLD !

So naturally, when Adam left this morning and told me that he had to work out on the ranges today, I was less than thrilled. Not only is it Saturday - a day normally he gets to spend at home with us, but a day we usually spend getting lots done. So, for now, anyway - I think that I will just chill out till he comes back. Like I stated, our Saturdays are usually spent lately, consisting of finishing things up around this house, so many loose ends of projects from this and that. My house seems like a mess to me and nothing is getting done fast enough. I am not patient. The good thing though, is that payday is again this week and it will give us the chance to get the things we need to finish up some of the projects. I mean, I know I shouldn't complain, but when you've lived in a construction zone - or what seems like one- for a little over a year now, it just gets a little nerve wracking.

Little things keep aggrevating me as well, and I know they really are little insubstancial things, but still none the less, they are on my nerves. For instance, yesterday; my son Cameron - who is normally energetic, was even more so .... I tried to clean .... in vain. Effortlessly, it could just not get done. I would get one toy or a pile of toys put away just for him to see them and say to himself " OOOOOOh my, it is clean ... let me tear it all back out" ..... sooooo this whole three year old thing - atleast with him, is driving me freakishly nuts ! I did however, collect another whole box of goodies for Goodwill from the kids rooms yesterday .... you know - stuffed animals that were shoved under things, little odd belongings that I have no idea how they got there, older toys ....oooh - the lovely things that kids "feel" they need kinda stuff...... so, I gathered it all up and dropped it off before I even picked them up from school - so for that I was thankful. I had also had some fall decorations to get rid of and some odds and ends from around the house. They don't realize what is gone, well, as of yet anyway. .... but it needed to be done and hopefully this next week I can REALLY hope to start my REAL cleaning !!!

My cat, Sir Smokey Bones has been acting like a fruitcake all week. He will just sit and stare and meow at me. Now... he knows that he is like lord and master around this house, but I just can't seem to figure his ailment lately. It is driving me bonkers !!!! He has been so clingy and sits by or on me all the time, he wants to curl up in the blankets with me and follows me all over the house meowing, incesstantly. It is like he thinks he is a dog or something. He gets upset when others go near me, it is very peculiar. I wish I had a picture right now of this to show you, but he is lying on my leg as I type. Okay, a part of me thinks this is nice, but another part finds it annoying ....what is with Sir Smokey Bones ?

Another aggrevating moment came for me yesterday when I picked up my daughter; Brittany from school. I had to get Hannah off of the bus at the middle school and told Brittany I would just pick her right up there, so I had to only make one stop. Well, throughout the week she had repeatedly asked to go to a school dance, however both her father and I had said a resounding NO to this question. No - for our own reasons and no for a fact that she didn't want to understand. So, I go to pick her up and she then brings her friends right up to my face and had them ask me ..... now, this is something that soooo ticks me off. I know she is a teen and all, but the answer from both her father and I was NO ...... so, I just got irrate and I yelled at her. Her friends must think I am a lunatic, but oh well. I really don't care - I am not here to impress them. We know a few other parents around that don't let thier kids go to these functions as well as they are unsupervised and the kids do whatever they want. AND ERRRR .... I am sorry folks, just not gonna' happen. I KNOW what them little boys want from a 14 year old girl, I ain't stupid. .... and now a days they get it anyway they can - it may not even have anything to do with her. I wish she'd understand, but I told her that when she is a mom - she will. No consolidation - but by evening she was happy again. :O) None the less the situation aggrevated me, oooh, how both her father and I so dislike the attitude she gets when near other influences....... Homeschool anyone ?!?!?!? :D (Just kidding - I won't mention THAT again.) LOL !!!

So, see - I know everyone has days that "try" them, that make them wanna' just scream, so being that I have the -so called- day off (for a while anyway) today while the hubby is on post, maybe a small good thing. The fact that they (my kids) have been down the stairs 900 times this morning alone to tell me what is being done to whom, or what so and so did to another isn't going to phase me. (Um, atleast yet.) I have tons of things to get done around here, mostly all little things that just have to be finished up, so if they can't seem to find something better to do... than to pick on eachother - maybe it is time FOR ME to FIND them something better to do !!! (funny how when I say that - things always stop ......Geeeee, can't WAIT for them leaves to start falling !!!!!!! :O) hahahahahaha ! )

Tommorrow Hopefully Adam won't have to work out on the ranges, but I still can't watch the race. TV won't be back on till Monday night, but oddly besides missing the race, I REALLY cannot honestly, say that I have missed the TV all that much !!!! It has been quite pleasant around here without it on. Pretty weird. The idea had passed though my head to just keep it off, but I think I will just cut it down to the very minimal basic crud for now. I mean, I gotta' have the races, man !!!! :O)

Oh well, for now, I think I have another load of laundry that needs to be done and a small list of things to try to do - that I can do - that hopefully I can conquer. Don't get me wrong, I love my kids being home - but even everyone has thier times I suppose. I hope that you all have a great Saturday - I will be back when I can. :O)

TAMMIE :O)