WHY ... am I awake ????

Well, It is 3 AM ... and I am still awake ! Sure ... I got lots done today ... the race was rained out and so I ACTUALLY used my time wisely getting more things accomplished here ... but I still cannot sleep !

So WHY am I still awake you ask ?! .... Well, that is simple : I am a worry wart ! .... My stomach is in one big gy-normous knot about going to court tommorrow afternoon for the whole van ordeal, the one that I wrote about the other day; and I am going out of my mind .... again. I don't think that even if I took a long soothing, hot bath or shower right now; it would help, but I have tried about everything else, I even did some laundry hoping that would bore me beyond immensity ! But no luck ... I am bored, but not tired. If I go lie in my bed, I will stare at the ceiling and my mind will wander into thinking ALL kinds of things ! Being a worry wart, ... even if I know nothing can be done about it, I will still worry. Sure - I know - worrying will not help the situation, it will not change the situation ----- whatever happens, happens ... oh lord, I am just prayin' though that the outcome is in our favor. It really isn't a good thing to be a pesimist right now ! We have no other (running) car to get around, we have four - going on five kids, my hubbs has to get to work ... I cannot get another loan right now because of everything going on here, nor can we afford it either ......... See ? my mind just will not stop ! WHY must people TOY with me ?!?!?!?

That is it, I am definitly going to be insane soon .... this is just plain rediculous !

The optimistic part of my brain says that if they do take the van, it was meant to be for some odd reason. That the Lord has a better plan for us, (although I cannot fathom to imagine what that would be) .... that it is what is best or ... whatever, but usually the pesimistic side wins and drives me nutty over all of the stupid worrying crud !

OMG... just be afternoon already so we can go and get this done and over with !

Well .... I dunno. I hope that you all have a marvelous Monday - I will write a blog later if all goes well to let you know what happened. Hopefully luck is with us somewhere ... prayer, lots of prayer ! :O) I am off to stare at the great white ceiling !

TAMMIE

(Well, why-oh-why, I must still be awake, I will be thinking of my happy place ... be optimistic, yes ... optimistic ! !)

"Set your hope wholly and unchangeably on the grace (divine favor) that is coming to you when Jesus Christ (the Messiah) is revealed” (I Peter 1:13).

Is your hope set on God’s divine favor in your life today? One translation of this verse says, “Look forward to more and more of God’s favor.” That’s God’s dream—to pour out His goodness and grace upon you. He wants to help you get ahead in this life. He wants to lead you to the right job. He wants to lead you to the right relationship. But here’s the key: we have to be on the lookout for more of God’s favor. That tells me that we can’t get stagnant. Don’t ever think that you can’t rise any higher. God wants to do more than you can even ask or think. It says in Ephesians, He wants to show us the immeasurable, limitless, surpassing greatness of His free favor. In other words, God wants to go far and above what we’re used to! He wants to show you favor in unusual and extraordinary ways. Set your hopes higher today. Increase your expectations of what God will do in your life. As you open your heart and mind to His unlimited favor, you will experience the abundance He has in store for you!

A Prayer for Today

Father, thank You for your increase in every area of my life today. I choose to set my hope in You knowing that You want to do more in my life than I can ever imagine. Teach me to be a vessel used by You today. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.