WAVES ....

Well, where to start today, .... Hmmmmm, let's see ...... I'll do a quick run though here ...

Well, first, I really want to say a big - huge Thank You to all my 360 friends ... because never in my life have I ever felt so liked by people and opening my box this morning I had 58 messages from all you great friends, wishing me to feel better - and I SO want to thank you all for that !!! It reallllly means more than you know !

Second - I am NOT talking about the race from Sunday in my blog, grrr, most of you who know me and watch the races, probably know why ..... It was sooo Jeff's race, and man it totally sucks that it ended like that, I was so pissed man ... I mean, I know it isn't his fault, stupid things happen and he is human - but god, it just sucks ! God Blastin' Tony Stewart ! GRRRRR ! (oh and BTW ... Harvick SHOULD have kicked Pablo's ass !)

Okay, now that - that was said .... Yea, the last few days have been pretty rough here ... whew , but today for some reason isn't as bad. I seem to be having a really hard time with the hormones with this pregnancy and you'd think since this is number 5 it would be similar, but oooooh no, they really have all been quite different ! Thank Goodness for my good humored hubby who has just been laughing it off - but in doing so, I think made me realize that it really is rediculous to get so stressed out about. I swear, I literally am ok one minute then by the next, I am pissed off about something or crying and in tears. WHAT is going on in my head ???? Well, whatever it is - I am so looking forward to getting this over now, it is rediculous !

I cannot honestly tell you all - that I will be on here everyday as I would like to, when I went to the doctor last week (who I like immensely) he was sure to answer all my questions but would not prescribe me anything to help me feel any better. He said "it is a wave that I must ride out and try to get through" .... (yyyeeeeeeeah, as I roll my eyes) and that prescribing something to me would not be a good thing right now. (AAAARRRGH !) He also wanted me to start tapering off my allergy medications (UM, HEEEELLLLL-O !!!) and stop the use of any antihistamines all together. ...... :o( OH - K THERE, Jack B nimble - HAVE you ANY idea AT all of what my allergies put me through ??????? UMMM, OBVIOUSLY NOT ! (according to him he just read in the new medical journals that came out about how antihistamines are now supposed to be deemed bad for pregnant women.) SO, he wants me to stop ????? IS THIS MAN MADDDDDD ??? HOW can I do that, ????

Um, ok - so that is GOING TO BE verrrrrrry rough ! Anyway, the baby seems to be well, heart beats still at 150 - same as every time - and movements are great etc. MY oh so fave part is now here where some days the baby has now chosen to push on my diaphram , making it even worse as far as how I feel, it is horrible to catch your breath and try to get things done. Uncomfortable to say the least. HOW MUCH LONGER MUST THIS TAKE ?!?!?!?! Doc had me do a Diabetic test and I had to drink this nasty orange soda like stuff, but all is ok. I have few belly shots I took over the weekend, and will have them up soon.

Next --- the house, YEEEEEAHHHHH, a total 'nother blog that I will try to do this week or early next. It is a whole situation in itself and no doubt some of the underlying reasons for my hormonal trauma's !!! There is so much going on with it right now, I have no idea where to start and am utterly confused by all the legal mumbo jumbo ! I am totally dumfounded as to HOW this situation has occured to us in a different matter once again, but once I can find a good way to explain what it's all about, I will blog about it. I have taken tons of pictures and plan to share them too, that way you can all see what we've been up to alot here and what is going to drive me insane - soon - I am sure !

Next - the kids. They go back to school here on September 4th. I have mixed feelings about it as we had planned to homeschool this year, but decided to put it off for a while again. OK, so I am quite odd appearantly - I DO NOT want them to go back to school, I LIKE when they are at home ... here, safe, with ME !!!!!! Things usually go fine here most of the summer and then the kids go back and attitudes flare and kids are influenced by the other kids about the OH SO lovely things WE WILL NOT let them do and then all I hear is " OHHHH, SO and so gets to do this and sooo and so gets do do that " etc... and guess what I say people, I say " I DON'T CARE..... I am NOT so and so's parents, I am YOUR parents" !!!! (You know, if I had the money for the Baptist school that is where they would be going - if I could not homeschool, but it is just to much right now.) Tooo much time is spent NOT learning in school these days and rather spent worring about who has what, what video games, TV or computer things they do .... to much about what stuff is too cool too have and boys and clothes and etc, etc, etc .... yea, yea, call me a tad bit sinical, but it is all for crap ! LIFE is soooooo much bigger than all that material crud, that I cannot stand to hear the latest on who has, or who did, or who got what. NOW, don't get me wrong, I like to spend money and all, just NOT to impress SO AND SO !

On the other hand, the ONLY thing I like about the kids going back to school is that they are on set schedules - and wow, what a big difference that it makes, I mean getting out of the house set schedules .... it is nice occasionally to have a few minutes of peace and quiet - but other times it is just lonely too. I know it sounds odd, (or maybe I am still wack-o and confusing you) but I hope you are understanding what I mean. Plus, with Hannah being a special needs child, it is definitly nice to have her on that set schedule too !

NOW, as far as the rest of this week goes, I am going to be busy, or "try" should I say .... Brittany has a thing at school already on the 17th, called a rally - it is where they get the whole grade together (if they can) and get them thier schedules, class info, take school pictures (so girls don't have to worry about hair, etc.) and sign up for sports and stuff. It is kinda neat to have the opportunity to do those things before school starts, so I will be glad to go with her, besides she claims that she likes me to go ... hmmmm ? She has decided to sign up for cheerleading, gymnastics, softball, tennis and drama club ..... WHEW ... what a list I told her, but that IS her .... wow, she is sooo different than me ...how come we get along so well !?!?!? Now - she'll still probably have Tap and Ballet again this year as it will be her 11th full year, and she is not easily going to give that up ... I just am hoping the price hasn't gone up on that, as it has everything else. She needs to have less selections I think, but she is determined, so please don't thnk I am one of those parent's who is pushing her to do all that stuff .... if it was up to me - I'd rather have her at home !!!! Yeeeeah, but try telling her that, she is such a people person ! Sooo, not like me.

Tommorrow is payday and I promised the kids that we'd go get shoes and a few things from the mall, now naturally they don't want to go to the -so called- mall in LaCrosse, (the mall we are nearest too, and that takes an hour to get to) we are from the city so it totally sucks being out in the middle of no where and all, but they want me to go to the mall in Rochester, Minnesota - oh about 111 miles from me, but I don't mind, they have so much more there and it is bigger with more selections. PLUS, it gets me the hec out of this house .... ALWAYS a good thing ! I am thinking about just making a whole weekend out of it, staying in a hotel and stuff, it would be nice just to get away from here even for a short time, plus we know the area well, since that is where MAYO Clinic is and Hannah had her surgery's there. So, it is nice to go back every now and then.

Besides that, there is just the never ending task of working on this house (show you in the pics) that we've been slowly working on and that really keeps us quite busy spending our spare time. I just really have to stop stressing out about it, I guess, it will get done when it gets done...... first rule of construction of any type, if you say it is going to take one week, be certain it will actually take much, much longer !!!!

Well, that is all I think I have to say for right now, I have reallly rambled and blabbed enough and need to go do some things today. Thank you all once again for caring about me, I am so happy that I met all of you that do. :O) I will try to be back to blog soon, and wish you all a great week !

TAMMIE