BURNT OUT

Hi Guys !

I'm sorry I haven't been here too much ... along with being busy or trying to get somethings done around here, I've been trying to fight off some of those - oh so - lovely hormonal ... issues - like depression and feeling pretty crappy ... yea, I know, all the lovely side effects of being pregnant.

Everything imagineable has been irritating me for no reason or I will just want to cry, and it is very annoying. I have been trying to get the kids back into school schedule mode and it has been doing well and even my two year old is going to bed the last few nights before 10:30 - which if you knew him, you'd know that, in it self was amazing ! However, I; myself cannot seem to sleep or get much accomplished during the day here ... all I do is putter around and tinker with this or that ... thinking that I am getting things done, when I really am most likely not doing a whole lot. I have some stress issues I am fighting that have to do with this house and the lawyers again, along with all the crap that goes along with it ... I am just sooo dang tired of fighting with it anymore. I would explain it all, (for those of you who don't know the deal) but I try to not get it in my head alot or I would totally be going nuts. So maybe when I am not so hormonal, I will try.

I have a doctors appointment tommorrow afternoon, so that might be good - I plan to tell him of how I have been feeling and hope that he can give me some advice on the whole hormonal situation or some give me some vicoden !!! LOL ... just kidding !!!

Maybe ... I am sure, that getting rest is what he'll say for me to do - and it is not like I haven't been trying. I mean, for my total insomniatic self, this summer is actually the best sleeping year I have had in a REALLLLY looooong time ! Trouble is, I think that I am just not used to sleeping so much ... It makes me feel lazy.

My house is a mess, I haven't vacuumed in over a week (gross) and the house is horrible. I have been getting things done, just not what I need to I guess. Laundry is never ending and I swear even though I have gotten some help, some days it just gets (or seems) worse ! I just don't have energy sometimes and it is all So overwhelming ... all this "stuff" going on at one time.

Well, I have got to tidy ... or whatever you call it ... my livingroom before I go to bed or "try to go to bed". I have caught up on all of your blogs, but not very many comments were left, sorry though, I did read them.

I will try to rest more and be back by weekend - or atleast Monday, sorry just not in the mood much to sit here - so I hope that you all have a great rest of the week !

TAMMIE