CRACKED !

OMG - people, as of today I am going to have to declare myself insane … officially CRACKED ! :O) ok, ok … lol … so I am jk, but sometimes that is how I feel. It is currently 2:30 am and as I am sitting here typing with one hand, the other is holding and feeding Gracie. Not so easy, but at least it is quiet all around, which is nice. Gracie still is not sleeping very well - her sleep patterns are so sporadic that some days I find it hard to just get on with my day. When it is said that every child is different - they weren't kidding. I have never had this much trouble getting my other kids to sleep or on a schedule like with this little one. I am hoping that this will end soon as my days keep running together so much, I feel it is all a blur ... lol. It is very hard to get things done when you feel all zombiefied !

On the other hand, with Adam STILL being home - I know that if that don't come to an end REAL soon, I will seriously be nuts !! I mean, sure it is nice sometimes to have him around, but I guess I am just use to my everyday schedule that I am bugged by his constant presence here - and it certainly don't help at all that over the last four days he has been sick and when he is sick, he is a BIGGGGG baby !!! No, I don't mean to complain - but why are men that way ? I get sick and still have to do the laundry, clean the house, make dinner, care for the kids, get up with the kids and what does he do ? Sit on the sofa all day and veg in front of the TV complaining and whining about everything known to man. It is unbearable. I am tempted to go buy him a big ol' package of adult diapers if he wants to keep acting like such a baby - but then that wouldn't be so nice, although I find it funny enough that the thought crossed my mind. I really am hoping that this thing at his unit gets fixed soon and he can go back to work --- before I go to the funny farm !

I rented "3:10 To Yuma" tonight, but fell asleep again, so I didn't watch it yet. I have been waiting to watch it since it was in the theatre - we didn't have the money to go then. I hope it's good, I like movies like that. Hopefully we’ll be able to watch it tomorrow sometime.

Well with about 37 days till the Gatorade Duels, I am finding that I am really looking forward to having my race season back. No more boring Sundays. :O) I still don't like the look of Jr's new car, but I'm not use to the green, I think - red was better - either way I think he will be better with Hendricks ,but Bud should have stayed his sponsor. Oh well - Jr's ok - but ya'll know Jeff is my man ! Hopefully this year will be a lot better without cheaters winning things the wrong way. (oops did I say that) ... oh and ? Have you all seen Jeff Hammonds Hair ? OMG ..... I was watching the Speed channel the other night and about died in laughter for a half hour, it was so funny - I think he looks hilarious ! :O)

So, I see that Yahoo has been messing with things again. I hear some people’s pages are worse and that some people’s pages are better. I, myself haven't had excessive problems as of yet, but then I have not been here everyday anymore. My friend, Eve has decided to leave - I will miss you Eve - but I still guess that I am going to stay. Hopefully they will get things fixed soon, I just don't feel comfy elsewhere - it was nice here if you ask me. Regardless I would like to make sure that I can keep in touch with all of my good friends here, just in case something happens to this site or I decide to change myself. If you'd like, - message me your email and then I will send you mine. I figure doing it this way, you'll give it to me if you want me to have it. I have gotten a lot already, so if I already have yours thank you. :O)

My holiday stuff is still up, but most likely will be coming down this weekend. I have just been too tired to go about doing it. There are still some things I want to get rid of, so I will go through it then - I have a full load of stuff for Goodwill again, so IF I can get that gone, I will be happy. I am still amazed that people put up their stuff - some over a month in advance - but take it down within days of the holidays being over. I know it took me along time to get it together this year, but I do like it up. It makes my house seem cozier.

So, next payday it looks like it will be a normal pay - but we are still concerned about the pay there after since Adam has been home. I just had to have our propane tank filled a little again and it cost 559.00 - and it isn't even full. I hate that, not to mention our electric bill was about 275 last month and other bills have to be paid too. Another reason, I will be declared insane, I suppose. I might have to get a job, this is getting ridiculous ! The bills and little money seem to just get worse - or is it just me ??? Oh, I can't wait till spring, at least no propane then.

Speaking of weather there was a few tornados’ south of here a few nights back. REALLY odd for January. I hope this isn't a sign of how spring will be. I mean - tornados don't scare me, I have seen two and find them quite interesting. I would love to study them and learn more about them - but with the one F5 tornado of last season in Greensburg, Kansas that took the whole entire town - that is scarier to me that it could happen again. I don't like to see others suffer and things like that really bug me.

Well, I have written a lot here tonight, it is now about 3:30 and I am going to watch the Brady Bunch before I go to bed. Gracie just now fell asleep, so if I am lucky (?) she will stay asleep and I will get some sort of rest, but if not, I will most likely be back to read some more blogs. I hope all has been well with everyone and that the New Year is still being good to you all. I have dropped by to yawl’s pages, just haven't had much time to comment. Thank You all who have dropped by here and kept in touch with me, I do appreciate it . :O)

I promise to try to get some rest and talk to you all again soon ! Take Care.

Your Friend, TAMMIE :o)