TIRED ....

Oh my .... I am so tired. I swear this child KNOWS the very second that I get up or try to do anything .... I have tried to write this blog five times only to have her cry before I get this far.... ahem ... I spoke it ! dang it ! be back ......

UM, OK .... so now I am typing with one hand .... errrr, not very easy. Good lord between my 3 year old and this new one I am finding it near impossible to get anything done, or even TRY (ha-ha) to have a schedule of some sort. Now .... why is it that I don't remember it being so hard with my others ???? Hmmmm, I must be getting to old for this !!!! (rethinking thoughts of another in a few years ...) :O)

Soooooo .... What have I been up to ???? ugh, yea besides the whole trying to sleep thing ... not much else. It is a miracle most days to just get down the stairs without Cameron tearing up the house and leaving me to try to find some time to clean it up. LOL.... Jordan was never like Cameron is. But alas .... what ever would I do without chaos ?!

Today is Brittany's 14th birthday !!!! She didn't want a big deal made of it really, so we didn't plan much. We took her out to dinner last night to eat Chinese food (her fave thing ever) We gave her an option to get gifts or to just go shopping with some money ..... she chose the money and went to Wal-Mart with it. She picked out an outfit, a pair of jeans, a new hairbrush, some "fuzzy" boots, a movie and the new Taylor Swift CD. Now, normally this is alot less than we'd spend .... She really wanted an i-Pod ..... but with everything we've had going on - there wasn't much money left for anything. Especially since we do NOT use credit. Tonight we'll probably just hang out and have some ice cream as she don't like cake ..... with her being the biggest help to me this last year and her grades being so good at school right now, I really somehow still find myself wishing I could make her day even more special.

Well, some good news though ...... after searching all last week , in person, within a 30 mile radius of the house we FINALLLLLY found a company that will supply us with propane !!!! WOO- HOOO - we have heat people !!! It cost a chunk of money to fill - a chunk that really was needed for other things right now, BUT - I cannot begin to tell you how nice it is ! HEAT .... What a novel concept - eh ? LOL. It took a while to find someone that didn't care about the whole credit thing and the fact that we'd had our identity's stolen, (even though we pay in cash) so I was very thankful that out of all the places we went to, we we're finally able to find atleast one company that cared. :O)

Tommorrow is Thanksgiving - so I hope that everyone has a good holiday and don't eat to much that they get "Turkey Coma" ... lol. We will be staying here at home this year - not what I wanted - but it is, what it is. Usually we go home (Indiana) to spend the holiday with Adam's family, but last year when we went home - Adam's mom started an arguement and so now everyone has decided to do something else this year. Now it is not unusual that she have something to complain about with some body .... that is usual, but it is unusual that now all the sudden no one wants to deal with it any longer - I mean, I kinda don't blame everyone - but I will miss seeing and being with every one. I LOVE getting away from this crap hole area and the girls and I absolutely LOVE to shop Chicago's day after sales. As I am sitting here right now, I find that the itching to be on the road right now is unbearable ..... I am missing going. I can only imagine Friday morning when I would normally be in Chicago at some good sales - here ????? - ha ha ha- are you kidding me, they have a Wal-Mart .... and if I drive an hour or more - a Target or a few other piddly little stores .... nothing like Chicago ..... GRRRRRRRRRRRRR ! I WANNA GO HOME !!!!!

So .... Yea - Christmas. I still am NOT at all in the mood to think about it. I wouldn't normally put up the tree till the next weekend, but do I have to really do it ???? Ugh, Why can't I be a scrooge this year ? Not to mention that I seriously do not think that with our amount of bills due - that there will be a Christmas here ... We cannot afford Jack doodie ! My kids are good, I mean they aren't asking for much, nor do they need much, but I want to afford them something .... that is Christmas. They have been super good this year really - when you think about it, they have helped with the house without complaining alot, gotten good grades and even gone without for us to get by ..... so it would be nice to get them atleast one thing they'd like. Jordan wants a new computer, Brittany still wants an iPod or a computer, and Hannah wants to get an American Girl doll .... pretty big ticket items really for all of them, but all items that since no one is doing lay- away's anymore I just don't think will get afforded. As for any other ideas - I am clueless .... do I do gift cards ??? get clothes ??? Gee, they really don't need anything else, no clothes, shoes, toys ..... they just don't NEED them ..... so I don't know what to do. Hmmmmm ..... we had thought about just taking off to Florida as a gift for everyone, but Adam cannot get leave. Man, it would be so nice to sit on the beach instead of here ---- this being cold crap is for the idiots who like it and that definitly is NOT me !!!! Speaking of which, I just heard the mention of snow ?!?!?!?! EWWWWWW, I hate snow !!!! We've already had flurries, but no build up ...... oh, man .........

Well, Gracie just woke up (again) and I have laundry to do .... (again) ... besides, I think I have complained enough for one night.

I hope that everyone has a good holiday .... I will be back as soon as I can. which if given time tommorrow - it just might be then. Thank Goodness for Adam, he does all the cooking, I hate cooking !!! :O)

TAMMIE

OH .... BTW .... to all my Nascar friends .... JEFF soooooooooooo gave that to Jimmie !!!!! HA ! Jimmie Johnson Sucks !!!!! The whole "new" Nascar thing sucks too ---- I say lets go back to the OLD way of doing things !!!! Jeff would be champion 2 X more by now .... no matter though - he's still OUR champion regardless of what NASCAR says !!!! go #24 !!!! JEFF ALL THE WAY !!!!