TEN MINUS TWO ...: THE WAITING GAME ..... ( A YEAR LATER )

*** (This blog is from EXACTLY one year ago ... it is NOT new, I was pregnant with Gracie in the hospital, awaiting her birth. How different a year is ! )

Hell - OOOOOOOOOOOOO everybody ! I am finally back - although it is just going to be for a short time, I am sure. I have been sooo very busy around the house that in order to get everything done, I had to pretty much ban myself from being here. I missed all of you.

Anyway, where I left off ( I think) was either Halloween ----->

OR the day I was supposed to get the PUBS test.

(read about PUBS here ---> http://www.ahealthyme.com/topic/pubs )

Don't worry, everything is ok ..... just weird - what else !?!?! Anyway, the day I went to the doctor for the PUBS test, I showed up for my normal appointment first, the nurses came in and did thier thing, checked me out - etc. Then the doc came in and had no idea that the nurse had even scheduled the PUBS test, so he wanted to re-schedule it ..... I guess the nurse I had spoke to - had forgot to relay the message to him so he had other things to attend to. So for a bit of time we sat and and talked about things and options. He told me that there is a risk with the PUBS test that the baby could even be lost - well, that put the brakes on that - right there - and I think the risk was 10 % out of 100 - but neither Adam or I were comfortable with it. SOMEHOW ..... after talking we came to the conclusion that an amniosentesis would be best to test the baby's lung maturity then a scheduled c-section. Well, that was last week - and all of this WAS SUPPOSED to happen TODAY. I on purposely picked today because it would have been my Grandma's birthday ........ but wouldn't you know it - as usual - things got weird AGAIN..... and still nothing has changed. I am sitting right now in my hospital room and the appointment for the sceduled whatever is supposed to happen tommorrow morning starting at 10 AM.

AGAIN - let me explain. I probably confused you.

I spent ALLLLLL last week preparing myself and the house - FINALLLLLLY (thank God) finishing E.V.E.R.Y. little thing that could POSSIBLY be done that could or needed to be before this day. (and I have pictures to prove it finally) Soooooooooooooo - yesterday - which was Tuesday - I literally moped my way out the door and we left home for here, got a hotel for everyone and were to be at the hospital by 8 AM ...... First I had an ultrasound done, all went well with that and the doctor was there - then they did the amniosentesis, I started to cry - NOT - because it hurt, but because of the whole not wanting the c-section thing. I freaked the nurse out - she thought I was crying because she was hurting me, but I had to tell her - no- I didn't even feel it. Now, I normally don't cry - not in public, not near anyone, not even near Adam - but if you've read my past blogs, you'd know how I felt about my previous c-section and how I am petrified of another one and so the tears were not going to be held back appearantly, I just cried.

After the amnio was over - they told us to get the results would take no more than 2 hours to see if the baby's lungs were mature enough to even go through a c- sec right now. 5 FRIGGIN' hours later - when the c- sec was supposed to be scheduled for noon, we finally got word that the lungs were perfectly mature and we could go through with the procedure. They took Adam and I to the Labor and Delivery area and showed the kids the family waiting area. They started to prep me for things and asked all kinds of questions. I had not eaten or drank - as they told me - for over 10 hours so I was feeling really icky - so they gave me an IV to get me to feeling better. Then they took my blood and gave Adam these scrub looking things and me a dasterdly looking cap for my head. Someone came in to talk to me from anestesia, but all I heard was "blah, blah, blah" ........ Needless to say - that was it - the water works started again and this time they wouldn't stop..... seriously ..... and I am not a crier people. I was kinda embarrassed, but still they just went nuts, like a fire hydrant let out. Adam held my hand and someone (I think a nurse) was stroking my hair ...... it must have really bothered her that I was so upset - because shortly after she left the room, a doctor swooped in from out of no where saying he read in my chart that I did not want a c-section that I wanted to do a V-BAC delivery. He asked me if this was correct and like DUH ..... YEA !!!!!!!!!!!!! NO NEED to ask me that two times !!!! So ..... by that time it was about 3:30 pm ...... and he siad that he'd not want me to do something I didn't want to, especially when just from reading my chart nothing showed that a c-section was totally a necessary thing or something needed. Neither I or the baby are now in any danger, ya' know ?! SSSSSSSo........ he left the room, left me stunned, but happy. He did come back a bit later to say that he really would feel more comfortable doing the PUBS test first to still check the baby's platelettes ...... and since I was already here at the hospital that doing that then inducing labor would be a good idea. It also helped that since it was scheduled and my being here already would be good in case something did happen to go wrong - so we aggreed this time to doing the PuBS followed by the induction of labor. Now, keep in mind a c-section could still happen - he told me that if the PUBS brought back a low platelette count for the baby that it could mean that, or IF there are some sort of complications. But still we opted for the V-BAC route first. Sooooooo, THANK GOD to that doctor who swooped in from out of no where ..... I wish I'd have gotten his name.

Anyway, so at about 4:30 this evening they all came back in to tell me that the people who do the platelette counts leave for the day at 4:30 and if it were ok to schedule all of this for tommorrow. WELL, that would mean NOT having my baby on my Grandma's birthday, but it was okay with me. I kinda just want this over. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO - tommorrow morning at 10 AM, (Thursday) they have the PUBS test scheduled for me ..... and assuming that everything comes back a-ok, they will induce my labor where I can have the baby natural. ATLEAST, as of right now ................ that is the PLAN ...............

It is now 9 pm Wednesday as I write this, I am sitting in a hospital room watching the CMA's on ABC .... Adam and the kids went back to the hotel room for the night and I finally got to eat ! Yippee !!!! Them kids were so good through out the day - we brought the computer with and bought "Ratatouille" for them to watch, they also walked around somewhat and found some things to do, and so Adam decided to go back to the hotel a pinch early this evening to give them time to play and let out energy at the pool. Jordan wanted to watch the CMA's instead - so that is what he is doing there - he don't like pools much, not a water lover like I am. Now, hopefully tommorrow, things go as planned and they are as good as they were today. HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM ............... ???????? Now, my only worry besides tommorrow and the whole thing is that we have the money to afford all of this, because in all honestly, with gas prices going up now and the hotel room for X amount of days, food etc, I'm worried.

SO PLEASE before I go tonight, can you please pray that everything goes ok here tommorrow for us and the baby and we can ALL be home real soon without those worries. I don't normally ask that people pray for things that pertain to me ..... it makes me feel selfish, but if you could do that for me this one time, I would appriciate it.

I have tons of pictures of the kids from the house finally being done, a pretty sunset I caught that made me think of my friend -Windi, and others that I want to post, but if I don't get to them tonight ..... I don't know when I will get to them. I promise to have them all up soon though and by that time will hopefully have baby pics too !!!

I have missed all of you very much, but am soooo glad to have my house done too !!!!!! Don't worry everyone, I will catch up and have not deserted you ...... I am still here !!!!! Now, let's see what tommorrow will bring !

TAMMIE :o)

Some of the pix I had .... ENJOY !!!!

For Windi : Yea, I guess the Lord decided that Wisconsin can have one good sunset every now and then !!! lol !

This below, is of our bedroom ...... FINALLY done !!!!!!!! Woooo - Hoooo ! We just love it, Adam picked the colors ..... no flowers ... ha ha ha , didn't it turn out nice ?!

OUR NEW BATHROOM, on the other side of the bedroom !!!! Although, not the finished photo yet, I left that at home.

There will be more photos up soon. The bathroom isn't done here in these photos - but it is done now ..... as you can see, the border, the floor trim and the window treatments were not up yet. It is a seashell / beach theme and the color is periwinkle. BELOW Adam made the cabinet and I painted it white.