FINALLY !

Ahhhhhhhh, a half way nice day out here, but so much to do that I really didn't have time to go out and enjoy it much, oh well...hopefully this time winter will stay away and more nice weather will soon be in sight for everyday. I love to hear the spring thunderstorms rattling around and rain trickling on the roof. When I go to sleep at night the sound of rain makes it so calming. Our nearby highway (90) that I can hear also comforts me and I have had no trouble falling asleep lately. I do not know why those sounds are so comforting to me when I do try to go to sleep, but I do find that they are.



Not alot going on here today, except being busy. Adam has been cutting the trim all day that we have to finish before we sell the house, and I have been trying to clean up a little. We have called for a big huge gigantic dumpster to come in late next week to get rid of all of the things that we don't want that are no good, the rest will go to Goodwill most likely. I figure that if I haven't used it in a year - then I really won't miss it....so it is all going ! I hate moving and all the extra crud that for some reason just loves to collect, just drives me crazy ... so it is far time for it to go. I know that my girls will give me some hec about some of the stuffed animals, dolls or toys that I have decided to get rid of, but most I have collected already in my thoughts and will put into boxes while they are in school. Thank goodness that some things are voluntarily being given away to our church as they were low for toys for toddlers, and seeing as we had plenty that usually end up under the bed or on the bottom of the toy box, I figure it better to give to a better cause. I do wish that some nice 75-80 degree days would get here so that I could open the windows, air out the stale winter house and clean and shampoo the carpets, I will be so glad to get that done, I hate waiting to long before I do it, so it is about time.



Last winter I had hoped to get ready to plant a garden here by this time this year, but I guess that won't be happening. :( I really have learned though throughout the last few weeks that losing some of this weight is going alot easier now that I have totally given up soda (thank God) and no high fructose corn syrup's or partially hydroginated things in the food. (poison - if you ask me) I love veggies, but I am not very good at eating "just" veggies or all good things. No, I do not eat alot, but rather I think it is the lack of exercize I get through out the winter months. My family calls me a bear, because I hate cold so much that I usually am hibernating inside wrapped in a blanket with slippers, sweatshirt, sweats and a heater on me...lol ! Now I know I love swimming, always have...but right now a swimsuit is a no-no for me....ewwww ! When summer comes I am going to do my best to make a better commitment to losing some more weight, this is just too un-natural and discusting to be just a little overweight and I know that I can't take much more of it. I am not one who cares what others think, so that is so not my motivation, rather my motivation is what I think of myself. I am not going to try to be a "hot mom" because to be 30 something and try to look like a teen is just as gross and disturbing as being fat, I - for me ... just want to be healthier, look 32, dress 32 and when I am 50 look good for my age. I have kids, I am not a kid. ~ I dunno, my brain is just not centered around all the "sexually" explicit things that go on today and that people are SO centered around, as well as things on the TV, so I must be one of a few, but when I was skinnier before - it was like, all anyone looked at you for was for that reason, they want to know if you are "open" to things or if you are single. So call me a total prude if you want, but, I will be proud to say I am not like most people when it comes to all that garbage ! There is so much more to life than just that ! Geeeze ! I swear is that ALL anyone thinks about anymore ?????????



OOOOOOOOOOOOOOH.....K . Hmmmmm. whatever set me off about that I dunno, but I am done rambling for now. (ha ha) I guess I just had that on my mind, hmmmm. Oh well.



Well, Other than that I am glad to say that we are all done with the flu now and I hope that it don't come back, that is for sure ! All I seem to do in my spare time is sleep anymore, I don't know why - as I am now off the pills the doctor prescribed to me for my neck strain after the van incident and to help with falling asleep, but I must say that it is nice to actually sleep instead of staying awake so much. I think the only thing I miss so much is talking to my friend Graham (my aussie Dad) in Australia ! I keep missing you (grrrrrrrr) ... I sleep when you're awake etc. (15 hr. time difference) I know I will catch you soon, you're a good friend to me. Hopefully, I will be struck with some insomnia again - I miss you ! :) HMMMM ... If not, I guess I will just have to come to OZ to visit you and your family ! ha ha ha ! :)



Well, I have to finish some things before bed this evening so I will go for now and will write more soon ! Hopefully Jeff does well in Texas tommorrow, and Jimmie Johnson and Kurt Busch crash into the wall ! :) he he he.



Well, Take Care all and God Bless !



TAMMIE :)