Well, for most of the day today both Adam and I have been sitting on our butts playing the Wii or being on the computer. The kids pretty much the same. I know - not all that exciting. It is about 95 out here and we tried to go weed the garden, but that ended quite quickly. WOW.. it's a scorcher out there !
Adam wants to buy Wii Resort on payday, but I am a cheap-o. 50 bucks for a game is a bit much in my opinion ...Do any of you guys have it, and if so, do you think it is worth it ?
The Restaurant City game over on FB has me addicted and has been what I have been on alot today - and I am not really a video gamey kinda gal. I REALLY do like it tho, it's pretty fun !
I also like FB because I can talk to my nieces regularly and have been talking to alot of people from my old neighborhood,(called CastleBrook) when I was growing up, I think it is kinda awesome. It might be neat to do a reunion kinda thing too someday as well ! They have started a group; fittingly called 'The CastleBrook Crowd' and it is so neat to catch up with everyone ! Who knew ?!?!?!
Besides that ... I 'might' have some news as I STILL have not gotten a visit from you know who yet AND I had to become pretty good friends with the toilet this morning ...yuk ! Fun times I tell ya. ....... Adam said he'd go buy a "Test" when he was done, but hasn't done so yet. It will have to be a cheap test , so I suppose with me wanting to take it in the morning, he'll go get it later on this evening.
I still have quite a many mixed emotions about it ... and If it IS true that would give meaning to why I want to cry every five minutes about stupid stuff and the whole Wyatt issue and how I can't help but feel it was my fault, blah, blah, blah ... I guess I am just soooooo very scared it will happen again and I SOOOO don't want it to ! GAHHH ! I mean his due date was tommorrow, The 16th ... and he'd be here for sure by now because I always am earlier than the due date. I just want to know the reason, and I know that may forever never be possible, but I just so hate that it happened. :O(
Part of me says it is time to let go, move on , get on with life .. but then the other part of me wants to dwell on it and always has that in the back of my mind. I held him in the palm of my hand, now something I don't think I should have EVER done. I NEVER thought it would ever bother me this much !! But it does, and the visions I see of him are alone and scary, I hope he don't feel that way, I hope he knows I would have loved him and been a good Mommy to him. I still just can't help to blame myself though. I feel so full of regret about it all. Oh well, I shouldn't dread upon it, I know you all prolly are so sick and tired of me mentioning it.
Anyway, I just had to release those thoughts because they were driving me batty. I will be back tommorrow with the update and let you all know what's going on. Hope your guy's Saturdays are going well !
I guess I am off to FB for a bit then think I will take a nap, I am tired again for some bazaar reason. :O)
TAMMIE
It was really hot here today too. A great day to play Wii or Facebook. Can't wait to hear if you're preggers.
ReplyDeleteHot here too! We did get some rain and some wind because a tropical wave is going over us but the heat kept on coming too. :(
ReplyDeleteKeep us updated on your news. It's sounding like it might really be possible with you getting sick this morning.
Don't apoilogize for talking about wyatt. Nothing wrong at all with it and you morn how you want & for however long you need to. It's okay.
I knoW rhat you have having a tough time moving on from the loss of Wyatt. It was not your fault. Sometimes things just happen and we do not get to know the reasons. He is not alone and scared Tammie :) I hope that getting your feelings out a little will help you heal a bit!
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