This won't be long. I have totally lost ...
... ALL blog mojo.
SIGH.
I don't know what else to say other than that though ... I am okay ... finally getting through the days without crying now. Although a small bit of depression has a hold on me.
I have been trying to remain as busy as possible around here, and if I wasn't busy or sleeping .... eating or watching TV were my past times. Nothing but crap is on at all anymore on TV and the commercials made me want to strangle myself.
The family is okay. Adam and I have been spending more time together which is nice and I guess now if I had to trade that for blogging, I would. It is nice actually to be getting along better with him even though there is alot left unsaid. I might just be taking a while away if this continues to be this way..
I am still having a bit of trouble dealing with the loss of Wyatt. I am okay for the most part now unless something triggers my emotions. I understand God has his reasons, even if we don't understand them... so while I don't understand, I am okay with it being his will. Faith is something, I am still trying to learn and the whole "Lean not unto thine own understanding" part, is a hard one too ! ~ I have been having dreams of Wyatt and alot of you know my dreams can sometimes be quite vivid. I have had some nightmares too so sleep is few and far between. Went to the doc and got some meds, he checked me out and felt really bad that something couldn't be done for me prior to the loss. I still have so much on my mind about it all, just really do not feel like talking about it anymore. I do have a letter that Hannah wrote to Wyatt that I would like to share some time, but it will not be right now, maybe tommorrow.
I really want to THANK YOU all for the cards and thoughts ... Windi sent beautiful flowers and Sheri sent balloons. they all mean so much to me and I am going to put the things in a rememberance box we made. I took pictures and will share them sometime soon. I really just am not in the mood at the moment.
Gracie has learned to climb onto the table and try to be a super hero ... makes my days kinda tiring lately. Nice temps we had the last few days made it easier to get out of the house, I am so ready for spring !
Well, that is all I got, so I hope that you all are doing well ! I will try to read a few blogs and catch up on some, but I don't think I can to all.
Take Care --- I'll write soon.
TAMMIE
It's going to take some time Tammie but your faith is going to get you through, not to mention all the prayers that are being said for you. Hang in there and know that we are all here for you! (((Hugs)))
ReplyDeleteTammie......your faith will keep u strong and I have been praying for you and your family.........(((((HUGS!!!)))))
ReplyDeleteHey.. if real life is good and close and warm and safe I say dive into it. My heart softens as I think of Wyatt and Hope up there somewhere together watching over us. I understand your pain. Stay close with your loved ones. Share love. Wyatt was just that. Love in it's most precious form.
ReplyDeleteHang in there. We'll all be here for you when you feel like blogging again. Take care.
ReplyDeleteSounds like you are hanging in there. Be strong. (((hugs)))
ReplyDeleteaww i love your little super hero..she's the cutest!
ReplyDeleteGlad to hear from you and good to hear that you are getting along better..its just going to take time my friend...I know you are doing the best that you can right now.
Ive lost my mojo too for now so dont worry about it..quality time is so much more.
HUGS TO YOU and ive been thinking about ya :) (justso you know!)
Live for your family time. If that is what is keeping you strong and helping you right now get as much as possible.
ReplyDeleteGracie as a super hero :-)
Sometimes it takes something horrible to bring people closer together. It takes time, and it will never not hurt but you will get through! ((HUGS))
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry honey, I hope things start to get easier for you. I can't say I know you pain personally, but I know if I were in your position, I'd feel much like you do.
ReplyDeleteTell Gracie even Wonder woman didn't stand on the table lol
Hang in there, Tammie!!
ReplyDeleteI was just thinking about you today, Tammie! I'm glad to hear you are able to take one day at a time...
ReplyDeleteOH...I'm so happy to see a blog out of you Tammie. I've missed you around here!
ReplyDeleteI'm glad that you and Adam are getting along well, and spending time together. It's needed. And worth you being away from Multiply....for now.... :)~
Glad you are hanging in there. Hope things continue to get better.
ReplyDeleteTake your time. There is no hurry. But you are also encouraged to blog when the time is right about Wyatt. What ever is best for you, to write or not write. It's ok. Hugs and peace be yours. Take your time.
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing how you're doing. I was wondering how you were holding up. Take your time. There's no rush. We'll be here when you are ready.
ReplyDeleteIt's so good to hear that you are doing okay. It will take some time to get back to feeling anywhere near "normal" whatever that may be for you. I'm glad you and hubby have had some extra time together. I hope that continues for you!
ReplyDeleteTammie!!!! OOoooooh it's good to see an update from you!
ReplyDeleteI'm glad to hear you're doing better with things.............
*big hugs* :-D
Glad that things are starting to settle down for you. It is going to be hard and will take a while, but at least you are not as sad as you were. ((hug))
ReplyDeleteI was so happy to see an update from you my friend! It will take time!! I have been thinking of you lots!!! I was happy to read that you and Adam have been spending time together and getting along too! That is so awesome!!! I sure have missed you around here! Big hugs your way!
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