NEW YEARS "RESOLUTIONS" FOR ME ...

I seriously hate calling them resolutions, but what ever you call it ... it needs to be done. Perhaps an intervention to myself .. ha ha. But whatever.

Feeling a tad better today, I got a list of things in order to make up my so called "resolutions"....

FIRST ) Take better care of myself. I don't mean..  lets get immediately on some bandwagon of weight loss to be a size 0 or stop eating fatty junk and stop drinking soda, cuz, being honest here - I am not at that point. It won't happen until I am ready and dammit food and soda just taste toooo dang good sometimes - BUT - I do want to try to eat healthier and clean out the system so that I CAN want  to do this. One step at a time.

SECOND) As I will be honest here, I HAVE been spolied the last 17 years of being married. We went on 2 -3 vacations every year, bought brand name things all the time, our kids never went without and we only shopped from the mall or better stores. This last year was excessivley hard, we did NONE of those. It made me feel like a loser and that I was pretty unfit as a parent, mother and wife. I KNOW that this is just  thoughts in my head BUT they ARE things I need to get over. I have NO idea why I feel that material things give ME, as a person worth, but I do. Also perhaps a reason for bad spending habits.

THIRD ) STOP JUST SURVIVING. yeeeeeeeeeeeea. I am good at this. Ummm, but I need to get on the bandwagon for better finances. While we DO NOT use credit and DO NOT have debt, we DO have a spending problem. I need to be honest with myself and get real, because thus far our "program" isn't working for us very well. I have problems buying used or saying NO to my children. I eat out WAYYYY too much and feel some abserd need to spend every cent till it is gone. It needs to stop. It is time to give up this "idea" I have in my head about what others think, rather than worry about my family. And while I do believe that using credit is wrong and I will never use it, I am still wrong for spending money I dont need to and not being a good steward of what God had set out for us.

FOURTH ) Become a better Christian and set a better example of what a Christian should be like - instead - of what "I" and my opinionated self thinks sometimes.  I am not perfect - no one is perfect, we are all human, we all love and hurt ....... and we all are much more the same, than we are different.

FIFTH ) Well, this isn't a "resolution" it is a command of wants - if you will. This YEAR WILL BE BETTER ! 2009 is a fresh start. I WILL go on a fantabulous vacation this year and have a much better year ! My family will become closer and be happier. We will learn more together and be a better closer family. (and if by chance the Lord is reading .. I would like to move someplace warm too !) he, he ,he. :OD

 

As, I was  going to go through my blogs from the last year and write some things down here instead of doing this, I became partly lazy and I also didn't want to "re-live" the last year.. so I decided to just not do that, but this instead. I hope it helps. SOO... that was it. It was of course, More or less for me to be written down to see 'my' progress, but thought for you to veiw it as well. Maybe by this time 'next year' I can say I learned alot this "NEW" year ... that it was something that was good to have gone through AND that hopefully it was a MUCH better year.

I Hope you too,  all have a wondeful New Year ahead !

TAMMIE