Prevyet, Dobraye utro Kak pazhivayete?
This means "Hello, Good Morning - How are you " in Russian.
1) I think I am chock so full of thoughts today, I started this early ! lol !
2) The court date for my van was two weeks ago now and I still haven't heard anything. I was told I would. Ah, should I be worried ? Gahhh, I hate when things like that happen.
3) I have decided that in my spare time I will brush up on my Spanish and learn Russian and Chinese. I can do okay with spanish if spoken slowly, but I am not all too fluent when it is spoken so quickly. ( Makes it interesting when they don't think you understand them tho .. lol.) As for the Russian and Chinese, I just find the language and cultures absolutely fascinating !!!!!! Eten Yzumitelno! (Isn't that marvelous ?)
4) Speaking of Russia .. I was just watching a program on Anastasia and the Romanoff empire. I had no idea they had already found her remains, I always found the story quite interesting ... someday I would LUV to visit there.
5) Before that I watched Time Warp and Mythbusters. Has anyone heard of Time Warp yet ? It really is a relatively interesting show.
6) Hannah's teacher appointment went well yesterday, we all agreed to take a few more weeks for observance then meet back with each other. They are concerned about her progress and she is doing pretty bad.
7) Which of course makes me worry more. They told us after her ordeal at birth we never would fully know the extent of damage done to the brain, and the progressive cognitive disorder is taking a firm hold. she is struggeling soo bad in fact they want to think about having her do ALL special classes. I wish we could afford the medical insurance. SHE is supposed to have a yearly MRI done and after that last seizure, we just don''t know what is really going on.
8) I had a badd badd dream about all this too ... I sure hate being a worry wart.
9) OH MY , I almost forgot to mention ... I was NOT forgotten !!!!! :O) I finallllly got a birthday card from my Mom yesterday afternoon. 2 Weeks late, but that's ok. And It was really bothering me something awful too. I am glad I had a few people remember me. :O)
10) In case you wondered I am up late writing this, Gracie is having a super hard time sleeping and I don't think she feels well or something. That is why I usually sleep so late in the day, I am up late either with her or my insomnia is visiting me again. Just didn't want ya'll thinking I was some lazy bum and then compaining about it. lol.
11) Which that word - complaining - reminds me ... I do alot of that don't I ? Be honest. I hate that about myself sometimes. But know I am trying to change it - it, like negativity is a very hard habit to break. I think maybe because it is like a comfort thing, you get set in a certain way or patern and to reach out of your "comfort zone" is like a scary first trip to kindergarten. lol.
12) I think it is good that I can come here and vent or blog though, I mean some of you have spoke up and knocked me back into place, snapping me out of it. It is like I know it is wrong and I shouldn't do it, but yet I do .... so trust me when I say this, I respect you more for that and even though I obviously have a need to blurt and have issues keeping the ugliness in at times, I DO seriously think it is making me a better person somehow. Changing me. Not so long ago, it was hard for me to say anything, now I can't imagine saying nothing at all.
13) Now I just need to work on the whole actually leaving the house and confronting people issue. Yeeeeeeeea, I still harbor alot of pain from the past, but I am learning slowly that not everyone on the planet is going to hurt me.
14) I do wayyyyyyyy too too much thinking sometimes. I swear my brain is always on. Think, think, think .... it never stops, I always wonder things and have so many questions. I think I must annoy people. Does anyone else do that ? or know how to shut it off ? LOL !
15) Adam asked me earlier to go hunting this next weekend. sigh. I really don't like the hunting thing. I am also kinda ticked about it all too because I asked him to go to church with me and he comes up with every excuse in the book to NOT go, but yet he can go hunting ? It really makes me mad. I think I need some help with this, because my mouth just might get the better of me. :O(
16) Maybe I am a tad jealous, I mean, he has friends and goes out and I get stuck here. I don''t have friends that actually visit me, or even live close enough to come by. It gets kinda lonely sometimes..... ok, honestly, alot of times. It would be nice too, if he'd choose to do things with me too - ya' know ? Sorry about the complaining.
17) Brittany's birthday is this weekend, she wants to go see a movie called "Twilight", but we said no, so she chose to see "Bolt" instead. gosh, I cannot believe she is going to be 15 !!!
18) Appearantly, I am not at a lack of thoughts here .... I am sorry.. I hope I am not boring you ....
19) Pay day is this weekend. It would be sooo nice if the rent guy told me to forget about it. HA HA ... hey, I can dream can't I ? lol.
20) What would you all think if I did a positive thought thing everyday ? I was thinking it might help me... writing it down and sharing it. Help me always trying to be , well, more focused on the positive. Ya'know ? Is that a dumb idea ? Would any of you read it ? What if it were somewhat christian oriented, would anyone read it then ? I am just wondering, ya know... I like to think.
* Well, I am off to bed .. and hopefully Gracie will actually stay asleep this time. Sorry about all that blabbering. I didn't think I had so much to say. Thank you (Spasiba) for listening to me and stopping by today !
HAVE A GREAT THURSDAY !!!! Dasvidania !!!
TAMMIE
Hope you liked the Russian !
I think a positive thought a day would be good:) But you know me...I'm a bit too positive most of the time (except for THIS week).
ReplyDeleteYea, everyone's going hunting this weekend...it's the big weekend. I work with a lot of hunters so they are pumped.
Sorry about Hannah. I hope the teachers can help.
Happy early birthday to Brittany.
Hope you were able to get some good sleep and have a good day today:)
I think a positive thought blog would be good. I am like you, sometimes focus to much on the negative and let it get to me. I also hate that about myself and try hard to not be that way. I'd read the blog no matter what, I enjoy reading your blogs just because I enjoy your personality. :)
ReplyDeleteAs for Hannah......Have you checked into your state insurance programs. I know each state has this, or at least I'm pretty sure. Like in Florida it's called Healthy Kids and it's cheap insurance. I pay $20 a month for David and no copays EVER. You have to fill out all the paper work to apply and show your income but I'm sure with just your hubby working and 5 kids that you guys would qualify for something. Let me know if I can help you find out anything. I will do what I can.
As for you and Adam. Does he like church or not? My suggestion is to find something that BOTH of you enjoy and pick at least 1x a month to do that together. It will slowly make a difference. Good luck!
I don't know if you should be worrying about the van issue....that stuff just goes over my head most of the time....
ReplyDeletegosh, I have a hard enough time getting English right, let alone, learning another one, or two. It certainly could keep you occupied, though....
The only thing I know about Anastasia, is the Disney movie! hehehe
We like to watch Time Warp with the boys. Trevor particularly finds it fascinating. Except now he wants a high speed camera! LOLOL
Glad Hannah's appointment went well. I know it must be a constant worry about what's in store for her. It's not surprising that you are dreaming about it. It's always in the back of your mind, and your brain has to get it out sometimes! *hugs*
I remember you have insomnia. Gah...that would suck. Me likey my sleep!
I think a pattern of negativity can be as hard to quit as cigarettes. It's almost ingrained in you. Especially if you grew up in that environment. But it CAN be overcome. It just takes A LOT of hard work. Maybe come up with the plan of saying one positive thing for EVERY negative thing that comes out of your mouth? That might help you become more aware of it sneaking in and help you fight it.
You have changed quite a bit since I first met you; it's amazing. I think it's a great thing to see!
Matt 'thinks' too much too. He complains about it a lot, wanting to be able to 'turn his brain off' sometimes! So I totally understand what you are talking about, because I'm married to one of those! lololol
Let Adam go hunting. And don't begrudge him of it. But! Do ask him if it's church in general he doesn't like or that particular church, and ask him if you guys could spend a little time doing something you both like, together. I know it's hard not to be jealous, but there are things worth picking a fight over and there are things not worth fighting over....
The boys want to see Bolt. Considering how long they've been hyping it, I'm almost afraid to watch it! I hope it's a decent movie...
A positive thought of the day would be a great idea. Write it down, put it somewhere you walk by a lot, and read it a BUNCH every day.... couldn't hurt! :)
15. I agree with everyone else that you need to find something that both of you can do. Maybe you could go for a walk together once a week.
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Holy multiply thoughts!
ReplyDeleteRussian huh? I think it would be neat to visit.
I havent seen those shows. Nick likes myth busters when he can catch it on.
Sorry Hannah's not doing so well in school. I hope you can find someway to help her improve.
I guess A is reaching out in his own way. It would be nice to go with you to church and you go with him for a bit. Hopefully no animals would be near by..oh that's easy just make extra noise "by accident" wink.
I just read a snippet of Windi's comments..that girl gives the best advice eh?!
I hope Gracie is feeling better and got some sleep.
I am home AGAIN today. Kristin threw up at like 430 this morning...still running a low fever but she did just have some jello. That's more food in 24 hours so maybe today's the day to feel better!
Geez between having off two days last week to be at Mom's and two days this week with kristin I wont have much of a paycheck at all :( ah well gotta do whatcha gotta do....
Have a good day!
Positive thoughts...excellent idea and something we should all practice on daily. Joyce Meyer has some great scriptures that help overcome negativity, on her website. I have some of them posted next to my bathroom mirror so I see them everyday, I change them every few months. I understand how difficult it can be to change negative thought patterns...ten years ago I was exactly the same, but I worked at it and worked at and still have to work at it, and I'm slowly making progress. When all you've known was negative it is difficult to break that cycle, however, you're a smart woman, you can do it!
ReplyDeleteTonya has a good point concerning State Insurance...check into it, most states do offer some sort of reduced rates on coverage for children, in Georgia we have PeachCare.
Spending some alone time with your husband is must for a healthy relationship. I realize that having five children can make it difficult to find the time, but just the effort of trying to make a special time for the two of you should show your man that you still think he's the bomb! And hey, let's face it, men love that sort of coddling, as do we ladies.
I wish you the very best...and you have a great group of supportive friends online who will cheer you on.
God Bless!
Whew!!! I didn't think your thoughts were gonna end!!! LOL
ReplyDeleteSorry about Hannah's difficulty in school. At least you are being proactive in it, and trying to find what helps her most!! Some parents do nothing!
As for hunting, not a big thing here!!! (thank goodness!!) There's something about "Fresh" meat that scares me!!! I don't know why???
Positive thinking is a great idea!!! Who cares if some people don't want to read it! This blog is about you and how you feel. If it's a topic we don't want to read, then sobeit!! We can choose whether or not to comment on it. But write what you feel!
I think the postive thoughts would be awesome!!! So you go for it my friend!! Wow boy did you have a lot of thoughts yesterday but I did enjoy reading! It's so strange that you haven't heard about the van. You konw I have a store to tell you about my old van. I think Adam should go to church with you if you ask but you know what going hunting with him might be a great thing!! I think he would love if you went and just watched him. In the book Love & Respect they talk about a man liking having his wife watch him as he does something and it energizes them. The hard part is to try to do it with out to much talking. As woman that's hard for us but boy does it work wonders. I still need to get those DVD's and books to share with you!!! I get jealous of Jeremi's music. He puts so much into it and so much time and makes it a prority most of the time. I dont' feel he does that with me at all. So I understand. I was so happy to hear you got a card from your mom. I know how that was bugging you and that's great that you got one!!!
ReplyDeleteSorry about Hannah's difficulty in school.
Ally wants to see Twlight too but I don't think that will be happening either. I think Bolt is going to be cute!! I hope your Thursday will be great! Hugs
Wow chicky you have lotsa thoughts!!! lol!
ReplyDeleteHubby has seen Time Warp and he liked it. I haven't seen it yet. We like to watch Myth Busters together.
Bolt looks like a cute movie ;0) I bet Brittany will enjoy it. Isn't it amazing how fast the grow? ugh! lol!
I know what you mean about the whole asking your hubby to do something for you and then he wanting you to do something and not return it. THat is sooooo not FAIR!
Have a gr8 night! Hugz!
lots of thoughts there! postive is the only way to be......Its hard to be that way sometimes huh? I think it would be good ....I think you might have started something.....I will do a positive blog this weekend....If you will...deal.....ok then its a deal....(smiles) Big hugs to ya!
ReplyDeleteWhen I was in high school, I had a pen pal that was in Russia. He was very nice and he tried teaching me some of his language, but it's not that simple. I love Mythbusters but I haven't gotten to watch it much this season. I'm sorry I missed your birthday... Happy Belated Birthday!
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