Is it PMS ? Is it depression ? I dunno. I am in a mood today. I am kinda ticked off about the things in my life today, and depressed. I am either crying or mad. I don't get it.
So many things seem to always happen at once. Some of you know - some of you don't. SIGH, I wish it would all just go away !
WHY ? Why does life feel it necessary to send all the crud at once to you ? I will never get it ... but maybe it is so everyday isn't crap.
I AM NOT A PATIENT PERSON !
I keep TRYING to be as positive as I can, but my life sucks right now, my marriage sucks, my kids are acting like baffoons and misbehaving like no one is even here. We lost our house, were losing our car, I lost my BFF and I feel like all I do here is crab, crab, crab.
I wouldn't be suprised if you guys didn't want to be my friend, I am not very good at being who I want to be.
I have prayed and prayed and I feel that the Lord is just not hearing me. What I have done in my life must be so wrong he is ignoring me. Why will he not let me know he is hearing my prayers.
We have nothing left ... and only prayer has kept me already from becoming like my family and giving up.
I feel no one here understands me, I feel no one in the WORLD understands me. I feel SO ALONE.
I wish when I got stressed I could just crawl up in a hole and die, but instead I always find myself here.
Why can't I just be a good friend and happy person all the time ? Sure, just do it, you say, but you're not me.
SIGH, so I am off to eat lunch then take Jordan to court for being tardy to class so much.
Probably won't be around much today.
Sorry that you are having a bad day. When it rains it pours huh! Things will get better Tammie! ((HUGS))
ReplyDeleteI"m your friend no matter what...thru thick and thin! *hugs*
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear about your tough times...try to keep your head up.
ReplyDeleteI don't think you are alone.... not at all. But, I think just losing your bf could make you feel alone and hopeless... I know it has for me. Then you add to it all the OTHER things you have going on, and gah.... I just wish I could do something to help.
ReplyDeleteEverything I want to say just seems cheesey... it is hard to keep telling you to hang in there and promise you it will get better when it just hasn't lately.
I don't pray very much, but I will pray for you.
I'm sorry life is being so crappy. No where to go but up from here!
ReplyDeletePlease dont be offended by my comment here ( I tend to offend people these days YIKES!) Anyhow, have you thought of seeing a Dr??? Maybe get rescribed a "happy" pill. I dont feel drugs are always the answer ina dults or kids... but Ithink you have really been through the ringer and maybe that will help. It really helped my Mom when going through some very difficult things in her life not too long ago. It obviously doesnt mask the everyday stress of life. Bills, cars, homes, friends... but maybe something like that would help you manage your feelings and give you a more positive outlook.
ReplyDeleteI dont know, I know life is hard right now for a ton of poeple in the worlld. Our economy sucks and struggling is no fun at all. Relationships are so hard, friendships, marriages etc. But you are not alone. I know when ever I get down like this, when shit all seems to hit the fan at once, I try to collect myself and remember the good things in life right now. YOU are healthy, Your kids may be bafoons but they are healthy (lol), you have love...... I try to remember that I am the rock to my family. I have to stay strong for THEM! If I crack, they know and I hate for them to worry about me worrying. You know??? Its hard to be positive at times, maybe a little extra help would do you good!
I am always here for you Tammie, We have had ourissues in the past and thats where it will stay.
Tammie.....Sending out big hugs to you........
ReplyDeleteIm sorry...all these things at once can surely make a person feel alone and hopeless....it doesnt seem fair does it?!
ReplyDeleteI know its hard for you but in my opinion you have to find some good release...something that makes you happy...i know you are probably thinking multiply but there is drama here too...something outside of this world, outside of kids, a husband and other stuff that will make you happy. Getting some serious excercise maybe to some great music could really lift that soul of yours....
I feel so bad because I dont know what else to say. I think you know that I am here for you if you want to chat or just vent away but I felt like I should offer...something...anything in the way of help.
I wish I could do more...Please try not to worry and find some goodness in your day...HUGS!!!!!!!!!!!
Sorry you are going through some tough times. Try to keep your chin up. ;)
ReplyDeleteI really don't know how to help you other than to say I want things to be better and you are a good person. You deserve to have things and be comfortable. I'm sorry
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you feel shitty. Your NOT alone. We are all here, and believe it or not... we DO understand. Seriously. And you have not lost everything. You have your family. Your health. Look at some of the people around us that are not so lucky!
ReplyDeleteI know it is hard to stick with faith when things seem so hopeless, but, think of this as a test... your strong... you WILL get through this. Just another hurdle to jump. Take one day at a time.
((HUG))
First let me give you a great big hug Tammie! You sure are not alone at all. Some of the things your feeling is exactly how I feel at times and just last week. I felt like I was praying and praying and nothing. I was at th point that I was even thinking of leaving it all. I had enough. I don't know why so much gets thrown at us at one time and I don't have many answers myself. I am still searching for them but I do know that you just have to keep on keeping and praying even if you don't think it's working. I am taking some advice here too. I am here as friend no matter what to be here to listen when going through tough times and to hear the good times. You do need to find time to do something for you and what makes you happy and believe me I know how hard that is with little money or no money at all. I am praying for you Tammie! Big hugs to you!!
ReplyDeleteSorry you are having a rough day! I hope things start to look up and court went ok today! HUGS!
ReplyDeleteHUGE ((hugs)) to you!
ReplyDeleteYou are not alone..trust me! There are so many others, including me..who are going through similar situations in life. I know that doesn't make it easier for you to hear, because I know when people tell me the same thing, I don't care to hear it much!LOL
I'm with a few of the others here. You need to find some time for YOU! Something that you enjoy..that you can do alone and no one can interfere with.
Also, maybe talking to your doctor. I had to do that and I'm on meds and things are a little better for me. I take everythingt day by day..that's all you can do. Your kids may get on your nerves and the rest of the family makes you see red, but I know without a doubt they love you.
I'm here if you ever wanna talk/vent!BIG((HUGS)) Gf!
NO offense taken ever -ok ?
ReplyDeleteDR ? yeaa, I wish right now, We have no insurance and the bills are piling up. I do go to my doc when I can, but I am already not getting my regular prescripts that I have to be taking.
I feel like a loser cuz I can't afford healthcare for the family either. Who cares if I suffer, but if anything major happens we really are screwed.
Oh no you're not cheesy, talking has helped me a little today, but you're right . I miss my BF cause we used to talk alot, now I talk to no one and it is all buliding up inside.
ReplyDeleteWindi ! Don't make me cry.
ReplyDeleteThank You Trish, I wish I knew what to do by myself, and as cheesy as it sounds THIS is it. The only time my kids leave me alone I think. Having little money and noplaceto go makes things harder, but not impossible. I wish I had some close friends to hang with,, but I am just not much of a people person,so here as about as good as it gets, I guess.
ReplyDeleteThank you Mandi. My health isn't that great all the time, especially without my prescipts, I just choose not to talk about it much here, I got enough going on. But I knew what youmeant and everyone else is happy and that IS alot to be thankful for.
ReplyDeleteCourt went ok, I will have to do a blog , maybe later, just not in the mood right now.
ReplyDeleteEXACTLY, thank you Sheri.
ReplyDeleteI am trying,but man some days seem harder than others.
I think many people feel the same way... like everything dumps on us at once.
ReplyDeleteHey, you are not alone. I've been fighting the same bug lately as you know due to lots of pain and there were weeks that I could hardly roll out of bed as all I wanted to do was stay there and cry!
I’m sorry you’re feeling this way. You are a good friend, mom…person. You have so much going on right now that I would feel the exactly same way. I wish there was some profound thing I could say to make things better for you. You are in my prayers.
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