Yep, suprise, suprise ! Chock full O'nonsence. I am an ever burgeoning ray of sunshine !
Court went ok. They always call Jordan last (as is his 3rd time for same reason) but I guess that is a good thing, alot of other kids were in there for underage drinking and theft ... or a bunch did vandalization in the thousands of dollars. So I am glad that Jordan was only there for being late to class.
I still do think it is dumb, but being late reflects upon you as a person sometimes and you should just not do that, so I can kinda see thier point. Jordan had wayyyyyyy too many to not make a point of it. So anyway -The judge told Jordan that if he can make it to class everyday ON TIME for 30 DAYS, he will forgo any "punishment" or fine. So, that was nice. But I seriously do not think Jordan can, he is so slow !
Anyway, MY day is still blahhh. I was thinking about going to church tonight, I have really been wanting to, but I don't like going alone.
When I was walking home I saw the gas company at the House, by chance I thought they would turn us back on ..... but no, they just left me a note telling me we were still disconected. NO DUH !
Now, *thinking* ..... THAT is something I would like to do ... ahhhh, a LOOOOOONG hot shower *all alone* .SIGH. Oh well, Ice cubes anyone ?
Thank You all for your support earlier, talking about things helps, but lately I have not had my normal outlet to vent, other than here, so I noticed today that I had been blogging excessively, I am sorry, just needed to vent I guess. When I get stressed, I tend to ramble more.
I need something to look forward to and think about. Hmm, gotta think.
Friday is court day for the van. I am so scared they are going to take the van immeadiately. In all seriousness we cant afford it anyway, but without another car, I just wanna cry. I have NOOO idea what we are going to do. How on earth am I going to get food ? Call Pizza Hut everyday ? Oh boy.
I hate when I feel down, I see things differently, like I hate everything about myself. Like everything is MY fault and that if I weren't around that life would be better for others. Does anyone else ever feel that way ? I wish it would GO away !
I do know I am having the ups and downs ... I just need to go back to the doc for my regular meds. They mess me up so when I don't or cant take them, plus then I hurt alot more too. I really dislike feeling the way I do, or thinking that I whine about it like I am throwing myself a pity party. I hate not having insurance - it sucks !
Gah, I dunno... I just got so much useless GUNK in my head tonight, I better shut up while I am a head. Hope you enjoyed my load of crap ! haha.
Have a good evening everyone - tommorrow is a new day. :O)
TAMMIE
Sorry you are having such a rough time. At least court went ok. Try to keep your chin up. ;)
ReplyDeleteIm glad court went pretty good.
ReplyDeleteI hope they dont take the car immediately and something can be worked out.
Thinking of ya :)
Hug's........I usually wind up sayin sumthin stoopid so I am sending hug's and prayer's your way:P
ReplyDelete((hugs))
ReplyDeleteWell, I'm glad court went well. And I'm glad you got to go to church.
ReplyDeleteI'll be praying for you. HUGS!
Did you go to church. We just got back, and I feel so much better. For real. ((Hug)) I wish we lived closer. Then I would go with you to church.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad court went well. I understand what you mean, it does reflect. :( Well lets just get him up earlier and get his ass in gear. Heehee.
OK. I gotta get kids in the bath... WAIT. Wha tdid I miss. WHy is your gas off?
Ok, when we moved in the last renters here did not pay thier bill, so they ame to shut it off because they owed a big balance. So I called the gas company and they said because of how things are they now, they do not accept new people with bad credit without a HUGE deposit. We cannot afford the deposit - so the gas stays off. We have an electric stove, but not water heater, so we have hypothermic water. :O( and no heat. I am used to the no heat, our propane company at the other house wouldn't give us propane either because of bad credit, but we had an electic water heater, so that is what TOTALLY sucks. It feels like needles in your skin.
ReplyDeleteOMG. That is horrible. Our water heater broke, and no one came out to fix it for a week. I boiled water on the stove for baths. It sucked ass. I'm so sorry.
ReplyDeleteMe too, but I am not holding my breath. I guess I knew the limits, but I couldn't afford the insurane, so what can I do. I had to choose food for the family first.
ReplyDeleteIt does suck, and everything seems to sometimes. All at once ya know .. but we always get through it somehow, just isn;t very fun while we have to do it.
ReplyDelete((((Big Hugz to ya Tami)))) Hope everything works out for you. Remember prayer helps alot.
ReplyDeleteYou are not alone. I have been feeling down too. Yes, I sometimes feel that everyone would be better off if I were not here not that I would ever hurt myself or leave. Neither would ever be an option for me. It would mess up to many people that depend on me (my kids, nieces and nephews) and that will need me down the road (my mom is not getting any younger)
ReplyDeleteIt's OK to feel bad about yourself. I sometimes think that it happens so you will think about what it would be like if you weren't here and then see that people need you and love you. I know my daughter would hate being left here alone with her dad and brother. They would driver her nuts and she told me that a few weeks ago.
Hoping for the best! Glad things went well with Jordan!
ReplyDeleteOk wait, are you freakin kidding me?? THey can keep you from being able to use hot water?? OMG! THat is cruel! Is there some kind of assistance you can get?? I know your in WI but I owe a pretty large bill from my other house and they tell me they will NOT shut it off from now through April due to the cold ... whatever act. There are programs I can qualify for to make payment arrangements to avoid any other problems. Man.. I hope you can look into things like that and get some help!!!
ReplyDeleteYou have to go to court for the van? How is that??? That is another area I am familiar with. The repo man is our friend over here ;) All issues though we were prepared for.. Let me tell ya, I could give ya an ear full!!!
ANyhow, I am really thinking about you and hoping things turn around ASAP!!!
I'm so sorry you're having it so hard. It does sound like Jordan got cut a nice break..... just hope he understands that and takes it. : )
ReplyDeleteYou've had your gas cut too? I didn't know that. Hugs.
Yea.. we figured that was why they stopped by this afternoon. But I did call late and got through only to have them tell me it was cut PRIOR to this, soI WOULD have to pay the deposit.
ReplyDeleteAs for the van, we have to go to court in WI before they can repo. They are repoing because we cant maintain the vehicles insurance and even tho we make the payments, we can't afford them, so I dunno, not that I am attached, just dont wanna be with out a car - it gets too cold here.
I have thought that before.
ReplyDeleteGood Morning! I am glad Jordan got a break and lets just pray he'll do it for the next 30 days!! I am so sorry about your hot water. I know I wouldn't like that at all!! I think that is so sad that no one will help you. Have you tried any other places at all? We have several here if you get denied by one. Ugh on the whole van thing too, that is really scary and I think it's sad! I'll be praying. I know it's hard! Big hugs to you my friend!!
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