HAY LOW - MY BUDDIES !!!!!! :o)
Guess who is back online ?!?!?! It is I, your furry lovable friend !!! Wooo hoooo !
I have so much to say, but such a little amount of time to say it right now ... so please excuse me if this comes out like smokin' jibberish from a crack pipe.
Sigh ... I have alot of things to do today, or yeaaa, of course I would be here what else.... I have my drug back ! lol.
So anyways ... Adam and I went to go see FIREPROOF last night, OH WHAT A GREAT MOVIE ! I cannot even come up with enough good thngs to say about this movie, and of course I STILL luv Kirk Cameron !
But wouldn't it just figure ... get this ... folks, Adam and I got into an arguement BEFORE the movie even. SIGH.... where do I start with this one ...
It all had to do with the fact that I was rasied christian. he said I was becoming my mother and I walked out of the restaruant we went to eat dinner at. He acts like being a christian sometimes is like the invasion of the body snatchers or something ..... like I am ONE of "THEM" and I am trying to get into his head or something ....
He seriously confuses me, I know he wasn't rasied the same as I was, but one day he's ok with it, the next he hates that I am the same way I have always been. It is such a trail sometimes ... anyway ... from there I went over to Barnes and Nobles for a few alone and he went to look at video games at Best buy we stayed separated for a few ... and then just about 7 he pops into B & N and says lets go, its almost 7.
So to the movie we went. I kinda was still hurt by his words... anymore they just sting like icepicks jabbing nto my skin ... so I sat a seat away from him and froze my tooshie off to watch the movie.
It was GREAT !
Now, I cannot say that is how HE felt about it, but he SAID it was good , so who really knows. I felt alot in common with the characters because they argued nastily alot - just like we do sometimes. I am hoping that deep down Adam got some of the message that I was hoping he'd listen to ... my cry for help, spomething, because the negativity and horrible attitude is one I know I can no longer live with.
To make matters worse, we argued a little on the way home ... but about that - I want to stay to myself on....
and no less I even had a disagreemant with my BFF earlier in the afternoon.
I don't want to offened anyone or step on anyones toes, but she totally keeps barading me with questions of WHY I am a christian too ... WHAT IS with it ???? I feel like I am at war, and I have no idea what to say ... I neeed help ... but she has always known this, so why now is it an issue ??? I don't get it.
I can tell you though, that most of you know that she is a bisexual and she runs a swingers club, however I am thinking that this all has to do with that, and the fact that I don't want to be in that way of life like her... but that is only a guess. I just wish I knew what to do.
I have had bouts of depression this week because I feel like I have no one around me that understands, like I am trying to better myself in ways and all anyone wants to do is to keep me down ...
Oh well, SIGH...
So anyway ... since that seems t be all I have been talking about today, lets talk about something else.
I have an appointment in a little bit to go see a lady about helping to get the heat back on ... our landlord reccomended it to us to go there. so we'll see what can be done. I did look at the guidlines tho and I d think we make to much, even though anymore, I don't know HOW... but whatever ... still is worth a shot to try anyway.
I am reeeally hungry today .... I haven't been grocery shopping yet and the house is out of food... I really need to go, but I always put it off. SIGH... excuses excuses ... I know. But hey ... that is what McDonalds is for. BAD ME. SPeaking of McD's I haven't won anything but 3 fries, 2 soda's and a McFlurry playing Monopoly yet ... ah ha ha .. as much as I eat there I should !
Ugh ... tonight is HSM 3 night.... SIGH ... HELP ! OH LORD HELP ! enough said.
Welll for this week that is all that s has been going on with me ... I have missed you all so much and am glad that I am back, I will soon resume stalking you once again ! But for now... I am off ... to where else ... McDonalds of course !!!!
Have a good weekend !!
:O) TAMMIE
I personally don't see why it is anyone's business that you are Christian. Why does anyone else need to get involved in your personal choice of religion? Your husband knew when he married you that you were, and your friend needs to stay out of it. I don't happen to be Jewish, but my Jewish friends can go on being so without my permission or judgement....jeezzzzzzz....they need to lay off you!
ReplyDeleteGood luck winning at the McD's crap....I personally try to stay away from everything but the Diet Coke there.......
Have fun at the movie!
Its hard standing up for what you believe in when so many want to shun you. I say hold your ground and to your beliefs no matter what they say...
ReplyDeleteIm sorry about the argument with Adam...makes it kind of hard to enjoy your evening like that, but i am glad that you enjoyed the movie despite all the BS.
Maybe your friend is feeling bad about herself and she decided to take it out on you...probably not totally intentional but you may be all she has to take stuff like that out on...i dont know, just thinking of what it could be all of the sudden. People tend to turn things around to make themselves feel better...if you know what i mean...
I wouldnt worry too much about it...just keep being your happy self and try to enjoy your afternoon!
YAY FOR INTERNET!
SIGH.... I need to, but I think they have put things in the food so I am addicted to it..
ReplyDeletehaha... I am joking !
I agree ... I just wsh I knew the right words to say that isnt harsh or brash to make them realize that I am not going to change.
ReplyDeleteThank you Trish ! :O)
ReplyDeleteI am thinking that sorta too (about my friend) but I am not sure ... It is just kinda confusing that I have always been this way with a few ups and down times, but it is like it just hit her that I am ... so I am left dumbfounded.
Ugh ... the arguements are never fun,but life goes on ...
and INTERNET ... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, FEEEELS SOOO GOOOD ! AHA HHHA AAHHA HA. :o)
I'm glad to hear you are talking to people about getting your heat back on.
ReplyDeleteAs for feeling like you always have to defend your Christianity? OH MY! I know exactly how you feel. I've SO been there...it's not fun but at least in the end we won't have to put up with that crap!!
We as ppl should not judge anyone.....there's only one true just judge..........
ReplyDeleteGlad you back on the internet! Sorry your date night was not exactly what you had hoped for but at least you enjoyed the movie.
ReplyDeleteAs for being a christian, it is a personal choice. I don't understand why it should be an issue with people that are your friends and your husband who have known you as such all this time.
Glad you got your internet back. Sorry Date Night turned out badly. I know you were looking forward to it. At least you enjoyed the movie. Enjoy McDonalds. Hope you win something good.
ReplyDeleteYay, your back!!!!
ReplyDeleteI've not heard of that movie?? Will have to go google it....
Don't feel like you have to defend yourself...if people don't agree with who you are, than they are not a true friend!!! Be who you are, and be proud of it!!!
Enjoy McD's, I don't eat there too much, but I did win a breakfast sandwich?!?!
I think that it's instinctual for some who are not Christian to actually get irritated at those of us who are, because they just don't understand. They don't understand that it's not a 'choice' we make. It's very different from, say, choosing to believe that aliens do or do not exist. Some don't care if you are or aren't because they don't think about it enough, or have managed to settle it within themselves enough to let it go, but I think that those who get upset or mad or bug you about your faith are still very much struggling with the issue and don't like it. Especially those close to you, because they see your faith, and they see it even in the hard times, when it 'should' be easy to turn your back on God, and you don't. They aren't seeing the 'benefits' of having faith, so they don't understand why you still let it rule your life and your actions and your choices. Does that make sense?
ReplyDeleteYou've gone through so much, and yet still you stand on your faith, and on the knowledge that God is real and good and will get you through anything put in your path and that sort of thing drives people crazy! Read Job...I mean, his friends, family, even his wife were so crazy mad at him because he would not curse God even when EVERYTHING was taken from him. His wealth, his social standing, his health......
I do hope that the movie affected Adam deeply, and he's even now thinking about it. Sometimes, (well, often, really) change comes about more slowly than we like. We only hear about the instant stuff, you know? Because we are a society who loves instant gratification in everything...especially solving problems! LOL But the reality is, that the road back from a bruised and broken relationship is often a hard and bumpy one.....
Would it bother you to know that we hardly even look at the monopoly thingies when we get McD's? I don't even know what, if anything, we've won! Maybe I should mail them to you! :)~
WINDI SO WISE .....thats your new name. lol.
ReplyDeleteNow, help me with the right words to say that make some sence on why I choose to be Christian....
Adam says to me last night ... we are all with brothers and sisters if you think about it ... and that is supposed to be a sin ... ha ha ... ok dork. KIDDING ... but to everything he has a comment back about it ... something about doubt and questioning everything ... he seems to think god and religion are a big hoax sometimes... but I told he we have one father and that is what faith is for..... don't know that that helped him any though.
As for the McDonalds pieces ... you COULD have thrown away my million dollar piece .. are you insane ?!?!?! HA HA !!! :o)
Windi...you ARE so wise :)
ReplyDeleteno, no, no...I'm not wise..... Give that to God, PLEASE! I'm only repeating what I read and what I learn from study... Believe me, I don't come up with anything on my own!! LOLOL
ReplyDeleteAHHH, YES ! SEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE???????????
ReplyDeleteTHAT IS WHY I ASK WINDI SO WISE !!!
ha ha... Thank you Windi :O)
OOOOH OOOOH, Windi ... Romans 1:20 .... (hope I just got that right) haa
ReplyDeleteyep! :)~
ReplyDeleteI'll just agree with everything that Windi said! Wow she said it good! Know that I'll be praying for you and Adam and I too believe that he's just taking it out on you his guilt and all! Just hang in there and keep focusing on God. I am so glad your back!!! Oh McDonalds we went there today and Weslee was so scared of the tubes! I had to go with him! It was funny!! Have fun at HSM3 oh don't be scared! LOL Hugs to you!! Plus maybe something good will still come out of your not so good date night!! Hugs to you!!
ReplyDeleteI feel badly that you feel like you're at war and having to defend your faith all the time. It shouldn't be like that. I know you read my blog enough to get that I'm not into the religion thing. But I don't want you to think I'm an athiest or something like that. I was raised Protestant. I TOTALLY believe in God. I just don't believe in Churches, and I have some very personal and specific reasons for that. But hey, I figure he/she is up there. I just have my own unconventional ideas about the whole thing. My parents raised me that religion was a private matter between that person and their beliefs, and not to be discussed.
ReplyDeleteThat all said, this is MY take on why your friend and hubby and other people might be grilling you about being Christian. From my experience, the minute someone stands up and proclaims themselves a Christian, it seems almost the very next words out of their mouth is completely judging and condemning the people around them who might happen to disagree with them. It's like being a Christian makes them have to force their views on everyone else. So it's entirely possible that because that is what seems to happen alot, your friend might be worried that you're going to start judging her and campaigning to "save her". You might not even have any intention of doing that. But that could be her fear. That she'll loose you as a friend, because of your differing beliefs.
I want you to know, though, Girl....just because I don't share your beliefs, I completely respect your right to them. It's all about what makes you happy and fulfilled. If being a Christian does that for you, then that is awesome. :)