Hello, yes, it's me ! Exciting huh ? LOL.. As all of you know this past weekend was a weekend from hell... but no more pity party for me. I am doing ok....
I really have always wanted to come here and be open and honest, I try to make everything I write come from my heart .... I come here to... be myself - you know ? I was feeling that it was taken from me, but after a brain freeze,, I realized that - DUH ... Um, hello you dingbat - you CAN block " the certain party" from your page ...which THANKFULLY is done now ! HOOO AH ! :o)
I really just gotta say that the amount of hurt I am still feeling is at times is still seemingly unbearable. For the past few months things have been bad anyway - but I just feel so betrayed, so hurt and confused. I hope all my friends here can understand. I certainly did NOT in any way expect for that to happen or for my blog to become so Jerry Springer like..... I feel ashamed in a way for writing it - because it gave her some outlet to act like such an ass.
I was even further hurt by her accusations toward my character ... I am NOT good already when people say things about me, and I always have it in my head that people "talk" about me anyway, but I hope that my friends here know that she was / is full of lies. I seriously did not hang with her very much in school - um as obvious reasons just proved as to why - and I can see she has not changed. The fact that she was ACTING as a "FRIEND" reallllly pisses me off, because we (atleast in my eyes) weren't all that great of friends anyway. It seriously tells me something when she can read my blogs and you guys STILL seem to know more about me than she does.
She is the one that lives in a so called "fantasy world" .... she has A all painted up in some brilliant form and pines away for him.... that I knew ... but still my thoughts of it ever happening did not exist.
A had to have known that even though she is fatter than me (ha ha - sorry, but it is true) that HER would be the one to hurt me most. WHY HER ? ya know ? I mean - not that I would have understanded it any more if she were some beautiful, young, skinny chic ... but it would make more sence to me.
I just wanted you all to know that what she was saying DID bother me. I am an open book... if you all have any questions - PLEEEEASE feel free to ask me. I will openly and honestly answer anything.. I am serious !
As you all know I cannot seem to stay away from my little holy land here in blogdom ... so I'll be popping in and out. I have not yet made an exact decision as to what will be happening around here, but will keep you all informed.
Having all you guys around did help me though, thank you all so much, I don't know what I would have done with out you ! Who ever says that blog friendships aren't like real friendships and you really don't "know" or care for people are so wrong. Thank you all again so much... it meant sooo verrry much to me !
NOW ... Let's get on with REAL life around here and have a good week ! No more of this crap keeping me down, she won't win ! ......and besides ... not to sound egotistical, but hell, I am sooo much better than her ! I don't NEED her acceptance or for her to approve of me, I could care less. I do not need her type in my life.
As for A .. I don't need someone in my life if they can't celebrate who I am... be there for me or want the best for me. I have been hurt enough in my life and I certainly don't need to have someone who is supposed to love me, treat me wrong ! I don't need to prove myself - right !?
Let's face it .... there are always going to be people in life who want to keep you down - they might be jealous or insecure, but hey, if they don't care to get to know me - then it really is just thier loss ! I LLLUV taking everything I possibly can as a learning experience ... and all this cetainly proves as so !
I need you all here - those that DO accept me and love ME for ME ! You all were brought in to my life for a reason ! Each one of you mean the world to me - and even if I haven't actually met you - are you MY FRIENDS !
Thank you all SO, SO much !
TAMMIE :o)
I hope everything works out and I'm glad you're being as positive as you can be about it!
ReplyDeleteIt's obvious from reading her comments that she's on a much lower maturity level. Just continue to be the best person you can be, because it's obvious you are on a much higher level than they (her, et. al) are. And feel what you need to feel....none of it is wrong...it's an emotional time...we're all here to listen and support you.
ReplyDeleteGlad to hear you blocked her off. : ) You don't need that debate going on as you have enough on your plate now without her butting in and out trying to make excuses for what she's done.
ReplyDeleteIt's good to see your being positive as you can be and you know it's totally understandable about the emotional roller coaster you are on so please don't feel bad about it...... we understand.
I don't think anyone here would question your character at all, so that is something you don't need to worry about. That was a person with absolutely no character or class trying to make herself look better, although why she thought she would on your blog with your friends is beyond me.
ReplyDeleteYou do sound very positive, and I hope things work out the way you want them to. Friends are here for you to lean on if you need them.
Keep hanging in there. Take it one day at a time. ;)
ReplyDeleteGetting rid of her was the best thing to do! :)
ReplyDeleteI am glad that you blocked her from your page. Hang in there!
ReplyDeleteShe needed to be blocked. Every time she "opened" her mouth, she just made herself sound more and more dumb.
ReplyDeleteI don't think there is one single person who read any of that who actually took even .000001 seconds to think about what she said seriously. It was plain as can be that she was majorly grasping as straws. I mean, any person who would come on YOUR page after sending nudie pics to your husband and start complaining because you 'supposedly' didn't wear hand me downs in school upteen years ago CLEARLY is delutional! I mean, come ON! *rolls eyes*
So yeah, don't worry about the supposed slander she was dishing out. Pathetic, really.
I'm so sorry you are going through any of this. I wish I lived closer so I could come and hang out with you and BE there for you. Sigh.
One day at a time. One day at a time.....
I'm sorry you are going through this. It is just horrible.
ReplyDeleteAnother thing. Don't apologize to us. Seriously. You don't need to prove yourself to anyone. She is not a credible source to listen to. We can all the that for ourselves.
And you sure and shit don't need a man that will do that to you.
It will get better.
This: I don't need someone in my life if they can't celebrate who I am... be there for me or want the best for me
ReplyDeletewas the best thing you've ever written. Seriously. I'm sorry someone betrayed you, I know its the worst, emptiest feeling ever ;(
I like your tone at the end of this blog. Everything you said is so true! Keep that great head on your sholders and you will be able to make it through this.
ReplyDeleteIt's safe to say she has been officially voted OFF the island!
ReplyDeleteI have to agree that the end of this blog is how you SHOULD feel! That is the Tammie that is going to pull through this and fight for what is right! YOu dont need anyone ANYONE to put you down and make you feel bad. You husband is supposed to stand behind you, love you, work on making things right with you, and just supporting you! That is what you need and deserve, this other woman.... she means nothing. Her words mean nothing!! ENd of story!!
ReplyDeleteI feel horrible you are dealing with all of this but know you are not alone! We are all here for you!!!
The only mistake I see that you made is the same one that some of us have made here in Multiplyland. We make the mistake of inadvertantly accepting invites from the wrong people. You try to be friendly and embrace people with open arms but....D'oh!....sometimes it bites you in the butt and kicks ya in the crotch!
ReplyDeleteDammit ! Maybe that is why I was hurting so bad ...oouch !
ReplyDeletejk...lol ! True tho - very true !
Amen. (Been there. Done that.)
ReplyDeleteGood for you for keeping the positive attitude! It'll get better for you soon.
ReplyDeleteI love your positive thoughts at the end...YOU ROCK CHICA......keep your head up...we are all here for you...and accept you for who you are....and you are right blog friendship are just as good as really life ones...I love my blog friends...
ReplyDeleteGreat to see such a positive attitude out of all this. I can't say I'd be as strong. I love you for you, so just keep being who you are!!!! :o)
ReplyDeleteI stopped in earlier today, but didn't get a chance to read your whole blog and comment then, so I am BACK!
ReplyDeleteFirst off... I totally know what it feels like to have someone acting like your friend who then betrays you. It shakes you to your foundation... especially because this IS supposed to be a safe place, a place where you can be YOU and those that don't like it just move along. I simply do not understand why people put the effort into pretending to like you and support you and then so easily stab you in the back. I could never be that evil to someone, even if I felt like I hated them. But, Tammie, do NOT let it change anything about the way that you are here. Just try to move on and not look back... because like some wise person (you) told me once, if you stop blogging there will be a lot of people that miss you around here.
One more thing... I totally think that the ONLY people that can claim that BLOG friends are not REAL friends are people that have no one in their lives that IS a real friend. My blog friends know things about me that even my long time real friends don't know... because this forum makes it so much easier to open up and be vulnerable with people and SHOW who you really are. So, just ignore her. She is a pathetic dumbass. :)
Holy, I wrote a book! Sheesh. Keep it short me! Sorry!
ReplyDeleteI should have just said, WHAT DAVID SAID! He is one smart man!
ReplyDeleteI am glad your keeping postive even if you don't feel like it or think you are it's good to think that way and write. I like you for you too! Know I am here for you! Thinking of you often my friend! Hugs
ReplyDeleteI started reading the comments before commenting and michelle said basically what I was going to say! Amen sista!
ReplyDeleteIts good to hear such good spirits coming from you Tammie...
Im sorry that you are going through this but you will be so much stronger than you already are in the end! :)
I LUV THIS !
ReplyDeleteTHANK YOU MEL !
THEWORDS ARE SO FITTING AND PERFECT !