Hello :O) It is me.
1) I am trying REALLY hard to be as positive as possible today, I couldn't sleep again last night and I still have not eaten much. I woke up at 4am and cried my heart out. I was glad I didn't manage to wake anyone up doing so.
2) People keep telling me to take it to the lord in prayer, give it to him... but seeing as though, I thought that is what I was doing, I am having a bit of trouble thinking he is even hearing me anymore. Right now - I honestly don't know what to think. Pray, depression ...how does that even go together ? Praise him in hard times ... yeaaaaaaaa. righhht.
3) I forgot to mention the other day, cuz all this happened that I have lost 3 pounds. I am 179 now. WOOO hoo ! Right ? I mean it isn't much, but it is a start. Prolly don't hurt that I haven't eaten much, it might help ! WOO HOO !
4) My kids have a school rally tonight, I really don't want to go to it with them, but we'll see.
5) I have to send a BIG THANK YOU to Mel. She sent me the best PM yesterday and helped me.... Who knew that through it all she would be the one helping me and talking to me through and about all this. My best friend is having a pissy mood about it all and frankly is making me quite mad ... so I have been quite down . It has been a horrible - well - MONTH... and without having you all here to talk to me and helping me through this, I would seriously not be doing as well as I am. THANK YOU.
Well, I have no idea what I am going to do for the rest of the day today, but I will go for now. Hope that you all have a good weekend !
TAMMIE
Just take it one minute at a time if you have to..one foot in front of the other.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad Mel was there to help you out :)
I don't really need a thank you, but I appreciate it. I was more than happy to try to help... I am just glad that something I said helped, even if it was just a little bit.
ReplyDeleteEveryone deserves loving and supportive friends, who want to be there in good times AND in bad, and I really try hard to be one of those people.
HEY! Make some more Secret Ingredient Cupcakes! That will make you want to eat!!! :)
I know you don't feel like going to do fun things but it might be just the thing to take your mind off things ..even if it's just for an hour or so. Make sure your eating something..even if it's just fruit or some cheese..and drink lots of water. You don't need to get hospitalized with dehydration right now. I know when your upset ...the last thing you want to do is eat but you have little ones depending on you..so take care of yourself. I'm not a super religious person..I believe in God...and faith that things will get better will help you through..but you also have to be proactive and make those things happen. You haven't mentioned if you have tried calling some churches or organizations. Even if the church can't help you..they may be able to point you in the direction of someone that can.
ReplyDeleteHEY --- HA HA .... that is funny. THIS was HOW I got woke up today....
ReplyDeleteHANNAH: "MOm.mom" ...
BRITTANY: "Shhh, Hannah, shut up - don't wake mom up"
HANNAH: "Mommmmm ...but I want those Mel cupcakes"
BRITTANY: "Hannah - leave Mom alone, she don't want to make cupcakes"
HANNAH: "But she loves us ... she'll make us cupcakes"
SO UM... HOW can I NOT go make cupcakes ?! I have to go to the store first to get more little paper cups thingys though.
Mel cupcakes?!? I LIKE THAT!
ReplyDeleteHA HA --- I thought that was cute too... yea, so they are lovingly known as the Mel cupcakes here now. HAaha.
ReplyDeleteI totally agree!
ReplyDeleteI feel about this way with everyone on here. I feel so lucky to have you all:) and hope you feel the same about me.
Hope your day is better. GO to the rally. It will help. :)
ReplyDeleteOk... If orgot I did eat a pinch of taco salad last night and just ate a few bites right now.... but its making my tummy hurt worse.
ReplyDeleteI don'tknow... I really don't wanna be in the mood to hang around people I don't know well. I may go to the park whilst they go, but we'll see.
ReplyDeleteJust take things one day at a time. Hope your day gets better.
ReplyDeleteUGH... I LIED.
ReplyDeleteI was folding laundry and then I broke down again.. damn ya know .. we just got done with our new laundry room.
I guess I outta stay away from here. I feel like I am being the contagious bug of doom.
Ugh damn this shit is to hard.
ReplyDeleteI think I got lied to - the lord giving me more than I can handle... yea... its too much right now
Grats on the weight loss any amount is good if it makes you feel
ReplyDeletegood! I am glad to see you are still writing and getting your feelings
out here that is really important to do hon. Focus on what makes you
feel better :) that's what friends are for is to be here for you in times
like these, I am glad we are friends you make me smile!
ThANK you Ariauna. :)
ReplyDelete1. It is really hard to be positive when the world around you feels like it is crumbling beneath you. I know, just try to focus on what is happening and how you can make it better. What can you do to make things better for you guys at this point? Try to focus on those things....
ReplyDelete2. You know, when my BIL and GF's baby dies back in April, I felt horrible! I questioned every bit about God. I questioned how a God could take away something so precious , how he could hurt people we love and care for. I have questioned alot of things spiritually and then my husband said to me " Michelle, God blesses us every day. Its not his fault our friends are sick, It's not his fault the baby passed away that way, He is the reason we are all here. Living life. The struggles are things he gives us the courage to get through. He doesnt create the srtuggles" And you know what? It all makes sense. We put things into prespective and we deal with them the way we need to.
"how you do anything is how you do everything"
4. I thinkyou should go to the rally. Have some fun supporting the kids nad hopefully it will take your mind off of things for a bit!! You all deserve a break in the action if only for a couple hours!
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4. Go to the rally it will help you and the kids get away from it all for a while.
ReplyDelete5. She is great isn't she :-)
Thank you Michelle. I know I know ... I am trying.
ReplyDeleteCongrats on the weight loss Tammie! You know girl you have inspired me to do 100 situps every other night when I do crunches! I keep thinking of you doing them and know that I can do it too...my stomach is sore and my bum has a situp rug burn on it thank you very much hahahaa
ReplyDeleteMake those cupcakes and enjoy them with the kids. I know that you are trying and I am glad that Mel was there with encouragement!
I think going to the rally might do you some good (JMO) but it would keep from you thinking about all that's going on at least for a while....
HUGS HUGS HUGS To YOU!
I think you SHOULD go to the rally and hang around people you don't know...just think, you didn't know any of us when you started hanging around here either and now look at ya! you have lots of supportive friends! I think going there might help ya get a few friends who are right in your own backyard (plus you can spy on your kids to see if they have any secret crushes! hehe)! :)
ReplyDeleteBig Hugs and go enjoy yourself OUTSIDE of your house! :)
1) completely understandable under the circumstances.... *hugs*
ReplyDelete2) Also understandable. But, it doesn't change God. I know it's EASY for US to say, "Take it to God" when it's not US going through what you are going through. But someone has got to keep reminding you! :)~ Seriously though, even when you think He's got His back completely to you and isn't hearing a thing, He's working out something for you. One day, down the road (hopefully sooner rather than later!) you'll look back and think "So THAT'S why I had to go through this. To get to HERE" I'm sure of it. I imagine that if we really could see the future, we'd be frozen in the present, because we wouldn't think we could get through the things God has planned for us. Either because it's bad, or because it just seems too hard, or because we are happy with the way things are. I don't want to keep bugging you about it....but I just feel so strongly that God WILL see you through this.
3) LOL, nothing like looking on the bright side of all this! But, be careful. You do need to eat to keep your strength up!
4) Did you go?
5) I'm really glad that Mel was able to help you out in some small way. There's nothing like the right words from someone to really make you feel better!
Mucho hugs!!!
oh windi... you could never bug me about anything... I have always luved that you can tell me things I should already know.
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