TOMMORROW'S BLOG TODAY ...

So, the insomnia monster has bit me again and I am still awake ... I am really bothered by my own negativity that I was having that in my restless staring at the ceiling moment, I thought why not write a more positive and uplifting blog.

Yea... yea - I am a blog addict .. lol. Only someone like me would get out the bed a t 4am to write a blog ! lol !

So anyway, I do not want to be boastful or toot my own horn - I am not trying to come off that way when writing this .. but in case I ever feel the need to be negative about some down things in my life I want to be able to look back and see the writings of the things I am thankful for instead. After all - it could be worse.

1) This ones a total given if you ask me - my kids. As I sit and watch them everyday and think back to how I was 16 or 17 years ago - not wanting to even ever be a mom - I wonder now how I could have ever thought of that. I mean, sure the kids are just that - kids . They argue and bicker and fight - drive me crazy and make me really want to go commit myself into an asylum from time to time - but in all honesty .. I have enjoyed every crazy minute of it ! I love to watch them sleep, I love to spend time with them and learn all about everything in thier lives, I love being thier mom and I don't know what I would do with out them. I see a huge differance from when I was 16 and had Jordan and now when I am 33 and have Gracie. I have learned how to be a better parent I think, I am more patient and kind, down to earth and caring. I have learned all this since becoming a parent and while it is often stated that one litterally grows up with thier child, in this case I do believe it to be true. I hope with every ounce of my heart that they know I may not be perfect, but I do try and I love them more than I EVER thought possible.

2) Ok, ok ... right now it is my house. Honestly. I am proud of my house. Good lord does that sound dorky ??? So most of you know most of the deal with the house that were are having so for how ever long that we have left here, I must be glad about it. I am proud of my house because we basically re did it all. We gutted it and put alot of time and effort into it here. I get attached very easily and will sooooo hate to have to leave our home. Right now it is soooo nice to have everyone have thier own space. They all have thier own bedrooms and there are plenty of bathrooms. The space is something I prayed for and it was alot of hard work to get this house to what it looks like today - and even though we aren't some award winning contractors, it is pretty good - if I can say so myself. It was certainly a learning experience for me - and the kids even helped and learned plenty of things too. I am glad that my kids were able to do so actually. I know there will never be another experience like this again in my life - but I am proud of what we did accomplish  - if even we'll never get to own again.

3) Well - ya'' had to know this one was coming ! My friends here of course. God, I have sat alot of times lately thinking about how connections are made in life and why others come and go - what it means and why some others can help you or you them. I am a thinker, I am deep and sentimental  most of the time and there are so many people here lately that actually GET me ... You guys have brightened my days  - even if ya'll just say hello. I think it is just so awesome that while some of us live so far away from one another - we do have a little group here that I love - a group of friends and bestest friends ... I sooo LUV all of you guys and I sooo don't know what I would do with out some of you... you have seriously helped me - more than you'll ever know. :O)

4) Little Moments. Have you ever just seen or done something that makes you giggle or laugh ? Ever just see someone you can so relate to and want to be thier friend ? Ever walk into Wal - Mart, grab your buggy and then realize that you went to the store in your house shoes (slippers) ?????? LOL !!!  Ever just get a smile from someone you don't know, instead of a frown ? Yea-- little moments like that I cherish ... funny how those little simple moments seem so big sometimes !

5) This may sound really cheesy and by cheesy I mean, full out Kraft, Velveeta, cheddar ooey gooey nacho cheesy cheese - but UMMM.... I like reallllllllllllly have learned to appricite the nice weather . Ok folks I live in Wisconsin ( ha ha the land of cheese) and it is - stark raving mad lunatic cold here most of the year it seems - I totally swear - but in that having to be the case - I find that  makes me even more appriciative of my surroundings on the nice days and enjoy a good day out ! I just luv to watch the birdies and hear them sing, eat my bird seed and watch them wave thier wings. Take a moment and watch the wind blow the grass, wtch the birdies fly away and wow there are so many things I love to do on a good day away !

6)  I appriciate my sofa - because sometimes my hubby sounds like a heard of dying ox trampling through the livingroom as he snores. HEY - it isn't funny ! I am dead serious ! lol.

7) I am thankful for music .... I seroiously don't know what I would do with out it sometimes. I swear to you - I can feel my soul when I am just chillin out to my fave stuff  ... um, such as Kenny Chesney ! YUMMMMMY !!!

8) I am thankful for sleep - when and if I do get it. LOL !!!! (as hubby will soon get hit in head with nearest pillow) :O(

Well - speaking of sleep I had better go and post this - I wanna keep actually nodding off, it is late and I have alot I am HOPING to get done sometime during my day.today - - -  Yea - that is my story anyway - just don't tell  my "other" friends what I said ... lol !

Well - Hope ya'll have a great and  terrific Tuesday !!!  Love and miss you all !

TAMMIE ;o}