EARLY MORNING THOUGHTS ...

1) It is 2 am and I cannot sleep. I have alot of thoughts running through my head right now. So what else would I be doing BUT blogging ?!!!

2) See what I snapped a picture of Gracie doing this afternoon ? She was holding her bottle ! She is only 4 months old on the 9th - gee, I don't think my others did that till about 6 months old !

3) I made an apponitment with my doctor in town today. I just love going to him, he is awesome. I have been having some weird things going on with me again - I am thinking a vitamin deficiancy, hormone imbalance or something else may be going on .... My nails are acting/looking weird, my joints are hurting uncontrolably, my hair has been falling out by the handfulls at times and even my teeth are really behaving oddly.

4) Speaking of teeth, the other day I was chomping a piece of candy and one of my bottom teeth just shattered ! I had - had a root canal done on it last year - but obviously it didn't last. No saving it now. I was so upset. Oh boy, more teeth out of my head. I hate going to the dentist, I hate it so bad I have even walked out once - I try to avoid going if I don't have too. I might just have to give in to the fact that it is enevitable that I wear dentures someday. Everyone in my family does - or is supposed to now. Some is because some used drugs - like Meth - but - Most is alot of medical reasons, like my sister lost her teeth due to cancer and they not telling her to put flouride on them or something, my mother had cancer 4 times too and was on prednisone like 9 years in a row - my medical/ dental history is so screwey ! My fahers side of the family though just don't have teeth, I don't know why - Oh lucky me. I need to start saving for implants, I don't want dentures ! This is not funny, it is depressing - even more reason to hide away now !

5) So my son- Jordan comes home today from school and tells me that one of his classmates has told him about his house being in forecloseure and it being in the newspaper for sale for 99,000 dollars. First of all - Ummm - could be true - but we are supposed to have this big law suit going on right now - most of you know that deal - so I am REALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLY depressed right now about it. Second ... 99,000 - c'mon - it is a 250,000 dollar house - how can that be ? Nothing has gone right about anything since we've moved up here - had our ID stolen and credit ruined - etc, etc, etc ....I have no idea what I am going to do. I looked online at listings to see if our house was on there - nothing. I looked to see the state laws and stuff, and nothing has changed.... we've heard nothing about our lawsuit and nothing is being done. We still plan to / have to file for the bankruptcy - but now I am worried even more. I hadn't told the kids about this - what a stupid way for them to find out. I would really like to see this newspaper the kid was talking about.

6) I am drinking one of my kids juice boxes - why does it never have enough in it ????

7) Something else has been going on here that makes me want to cry - I'm not ready to really talk about it though, but it scares me. I think when I can deal with the thoughts in my head about it all better, I will share it. Just needed to vent that.

8) I've been thinking of RAKs to do all week, and I can't wait to share them on Monday !

9) I find out today if the kids' schools have cancelled our spring break. I will be pretty upset if they do - the kids and I were really looking forward to seeing my B nad SIL in Michigan as well as me getting the chance to meet up with Windi. The kids have had more snow days than I can count this year and I understand thier reasons, but people do make plans - so it is also not fair. My kids missed alot of days when Gracie was born and we had to be at the MAYO clinic in MN - also all the days I have to go for my IVIG's and such .... this sucks !

10) We got our tax return today - nice amount too ----- goddddddddddddddddddd I soooooooooooooo wish that I could go spend it all and make it toward a trip far away from here, Right now some nice warm beach is calling my name - no kids, no laundry, no cranky hubby, ,,,,,,, just me - the sun and the sand ! Instead I have to get up in about 3 hours to go pay it all away to bills and things that have gone way past due, while that does feel a tad good to get those out of my hair, I just wish it didn't have to be that way - god, I wanna just take it and run !!!!!

11) Well I am just pretty down right now about all this stuff, but I also know that being overly tired isn't helping  - so off to bed I go - see you all tomoro ! I know I will be back to my chipper self in the morn '! Have a fantastic Friday everyone ! :O)