Is it just me ? I just don't get it - I guess. I have no idea what is wrong with me really. I feel like the odd girl out - I try, and try .... only get get no where. I have tried several times to make friends here and try to be nice to others and it seems to me that no matter how hard I try - I lose friends ... either on here, or at 360 when I was there. I haven't lost any recently, but no one will talk to me much anymore, but I know they talk to others. So I guess I am just the dope out of the "so called circle" once again - as I always have been. No worries, most likely my fault as always it has.
Okay so I ticked off a few gals a few months back with some OBVIOUS hormonal issues or something I was having on a rant one day - and it seems like ever since there is a "cult" and thier against me, and now they are having others turn against me. Oh, maybe it is just me - but I have tried to say sorry -which I really am, and that nothing was really meant by it. I thought it was all just a big MISunderstanding and don't understand thier points of veiw very well as they didn't really take the time to explain it too well. I know this DOES sound pathetic, which again it is probably coming off as, but I really am just THAT bad at having any self esteem and making or keeping friends for that matter.
How come people follow a certain steroe type instead of trying to help others realize that they DO NOT fit that sterotype and ARE different. I've tried hard lately to believe that maybe not EVERYONE around me here should be treated like some have treated me .... but no one takes the time to prove my therories wrong or explain a better way of thinking, even if it is NOT what I want to hear.
I dunno, maybe I AM going thru something, maybe, I am just not the likeable type, maybe everyone is right. I have always just wanted to have friends, I try tooo hard or say the wrong thing one time and thier gone... I can't be myself or say what want to sometimes without feeling bad about everything.
I know that I am VERY VERY FARRRRRR from perfect - I am soooo willing and ready for a change sometimes it hurts, but it is hard alone.
* Please - if you don't understand where I am coming from, read my blog entitled "Different". That's a start ...
** and to the friends that stuck by (you know who you are) EVEN if you did NOT agree with me- or I with you - I will forever have you in my heart ! I love you all for trying to understand me and being my friend. It meant the world to me.
Sorry you are feeling this way. Not really sure what to say to help. It took me forever on 360 to make friends and luckily the same ones I had there are mostly on here too. I never know what to say and I think my blogs are always boring. Its hard! I feel like sometimes if I didnt go to some pages, some would NEVER come to mine.
ReplyDeleteSome people just really know how to get their thoughts out well. Not sure that i am one of those but I definately think you are...
Im not totally sure what you are talking about with stereotypes.
What is it that you want to change?
HUGS!!!!
I don't think it sounds ignorantly pathetic at all. I know how you feel. I've been there too. Just know that your friends that stick behind you are the ones you should focus on. If you try to impress people, usually, the aren't worth impressing!
ReplyDeleteI've only known you a few weeks...but I don't scare off easily yanno!
Did I miss something?
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you feel like this. But I'm not going anywhere, ok? :)
Hey Tammie~ I stumbled upon your page tonight off of one of my friends pages and I think I am one of the possible people you could be referring to. I was a friend of yours on 360 and as I recall there are alot of things that went on to lead to the disconnection of a few of us from you. I am here for NO DRAMA!!! I love my friends that I have met on here and I have met some wonderful people here. No one is getting together to form a "cult" by any means against you or saying anything to anyone else here either so I am really curious as to who and what you are talking about.
ReplyDeleteDid you tell everyone here how you had your husband threaten many of us and leave really rude messages just because we chose to ignore comments from you?? Really now, I think you should take a step back and and really look at what the problem was over there. We all have different ways of life. DIfferent parenting, different relationships and marriages. I do not knock anyone for their differnet lifestyle. However, I dont feel I should be judged either because I drink once in awhile, I swear, I let my kids watch TV...... I felt as if you were saying to me and others that your way was better.... Its not. To each his own I guess.... My point of leaving this message is actually just to let you know that from the couple of blogs and comments i have seen here, I am really thinking you should take up some of your issues with those involved. If you have a problem with me or any other person here, you should maybe ask them first about the situation. I can guarantee to you you are making it a much bigger deal here than it ever was. Myself and my friends are good people and we would not waste our time or put any energy into turning others away from certain people. Immature and childish if you ask me. If you have an issue with me, please contact me!! This is just kind of funny reading this because I am not sure where it all came from all of a sudden.......
I deleted a comment here everyone, because I did not think it was right to have this person known so she is not being bothered. I did not want any drama here and neither did she so the person who sent the PM ain't getting that rile out of me anymore.
ReplyDeleteand by the way, i just came here to vent .... alone in my secret spot, maybe the WHOLE story was not told in this blog, but some of it is what I thought to be my own buisness.
ReplyDeleteI know how you feel about not having much friends! I am in the same situation! I know I haven't talked to you in forever but I am always here if you need to talk... Just know you have friends all around!!
ReplyDeleteHello my friend! I am sorry your feeling this way! I understand. I wonder why did they visit so and so page all the time but only visit mine from time to time. I try to make it an effort to make it to all my friends. I will admit I do stop going to peoples page if they stop coming to mine but the ones that make it a point to come to my page I do go to theirs. I know I don't always get to everyones everyday but some of my friends have longer blogs that I really want to reply to with but don't always have the time. I've had a whopper of a weekend so far been a very emotional one for me. Just can only handle so much. So hang in there and know I am here for you my friend!! Hugs
ReplyDeleteYou are NOT pathetic. I think you are just what you say you are...an insecure woman with 5 children, here to meet and make friends. You've said how you feel in other blogs, so I think it's okay to say that you ARE insecure...and certain people KNOW that, and play on it, and make their dramas.
ReplyDeleteIt's just stupid, and you're right to delete comments and block the person. Don't let them make you feel worse...I've told you before that I really enjoy your blogs, and you could be a writer. Soo...let THEM have their drama, and we'll all just be friends! Take care...