Well, I just got done watching this show called "Women Behind Bars" on the We channel and it was about this mother from Florida whose name was Leslie demiuk or something and she killed her two four year old twin boys. By the end of the show, I of course am in tears and wondering why I even watched this show....
Cameron is going to be four in October. I can't stop tearing up - it makes my heart hurt so much to even think about someone doing things like this. Then of course thoughts flood my head of things like Susan Smith who killed her boys and then I go into a full on ugly cry. It is not pretty people.
HOW can anyone do things like this to a child ?
God gives you a gift and no matter what you do to them, as children they will love you - unconditionally and how can you just look that child in the face.... and then ... OOOOOH...
I need a tissue.
I had to relieve my angst - or I will never sleep tonight... I just don't get it.
I never - NEVER - NEVER knew how much I could love anyone until I had my children ....
I just don't know why. WHY ????
Accidents happen, and it does suck .. but to do something intentional ..... WHY ? WHY ? WHY ? Bad people rule the world, things go on everyday that shouldn't, greed, lust, sin, hate , racism ... all the crap that we want to keep our kids away from. But but a child can't ... oh ya'll know what I am trying to say.... a child is just LOVE -- that is how I see it...
I can't stop thinking of them boys - loving her and how she could know that and do that and it just makes no sence - a mother ... oh geeze, I gotta stop ........
All these things just make me sooooo sad... I reeealy got to stop watching these shows again. I just can't handle death stories like that very well - especially when it is so senceless - - needless.
Oh - thank you for listening to me blab - I had to vent. I just had too - even if ya'll think I am a bit nutty for having done so ....
anyway .... I MUST go hug Cameron now.
Hope ya'll have a good day today - I'll be around - but probably late as maybe I will get some sleep. :O)
Good Morning Tammie! Oh I feel the same way you do and I wonder why myself I watch or follow things like that. I remember that one lady that drowned all her kids and they went into details. I followed that and with each detail I got more and more upset! I don't understand either and can't imagine why any one could look at a kid and do the things they do to them. Ugh!! I sure hope you got some sleep my friend I am sure it was hard!! Hugs to you and try to enjoy your Wednesday!! Hugs
ReplyDeleteI agree. I get so mad when I hear stories like that. As mad as I can get with my kids, I would NEVER hurt them. NEVER. I hope you got some sleep!
ReplyDeleteGet thee a prescription for Ativan. Taken as needed it will alleviate insomnia due to anxiety.
ReplyDeleteAlso, I can barely read foxnews.com any more because there's always a story about some parent abusing/molesting/killing their child/ren. It breaks my heart.
i agree with Pam. I don't watch TV for that reason. Hope you get some more sleep.
ReplyDeleteI refuse to watch things like that for that reason. Now, I do read books on it, true crime books, don't get me wrong they get at me too, but it's the visual images on TV that I can't handle the most. To this day I still can't watch the beginning of Stephen King's Pet Cemetery because of the scene where they don't actually show but imply with that shoe that Gage is struck buy that semi. Can't watch it, even though I know its fiction.
ReplyDeleteI can't watch that stuff! Shoot, I can barley stand to watch the local news!
ReplyDeleteMaybe you should talk to you Dr about geving you script to help you relax a little??
I do my best to avoid the news anymore. It's way too depressing.
ReplyDeleteAs a person who is not able to have children, it makes me sick when I hear stories about the one you saw.. it's disgusting that some people have to apply and pay to be a parent and go through a federal background investigation but any random loony who's not equipped to be a mom can be one..
ReplyDeleteOh my goodness, I can definitely understand your tears. I can't watch stuff like that, I won't even go to a movie if I have any idea that something very bad happens to children in it. I will never be able to understand the way someone that can do that to a child that is dependent on them and has no recourse when something hurts them, especially when that someone is supposed to protect them and cherish them. I think that is why we have so many messed up people in our world today. Oh boy.....I could really get into this but I really don't want to be crying this early in the day. Just know your limitations on this issue and love your kids the way you think they should be loved. We can only help one at a time.....you know?
ReplyDeleteP.S. that picture is absolutely adorable! Those eyes!! :) Hope you're getting some sleep Sweetheart...
ReplyDeleteAww, HUG!! I always get WAY to emotionally invovled in TV shows also. I have no idea how someone could do something like that....
ReplyDeleteJust be happy for the kids and the morals that you have:)
Hey girl! Luv that pic. of Cameron..that is just the cutest little face!! I've seen that show before too..I agree..I can't see how someone can hurt a child! Hope u feel better after a good vent!!..lol And I really hope u were able to finally get some sleep..I have nights like that sometimes myself..it sux! Well have a good day! ttyl! Hugz!
ReplyDeleteSorry you couldn't sleep - but yeah, my gosh - I usualy watch that stuff - those shows, but it's more to try to get a grip on WHY someone would do such a thing. I was recently thinking of that woman who drowned like 5 of her kids in the bath tub. It just crushes me - but I can't turn away from the news.
ReplyDeleteThe difference between you & me and those obviously f'd up mothers is that we have love and compassion and our children are lucky for it! They were born to us, not to a psychopath!
I couldn't agree more.
ReplyDeleteoooh, Andrea Yates - thats another one that made me cry ... I am such a crier lately.
I can't stand to watch or hear about stuff like that, it just makes me so emotional and angry that people can do those things.
ReplyDeleteLove that photo.. what a face lol
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