LONG TIME NO BLOG ...

Wow, things have been crazy hectic here. I have had no time to sit and just blog or even to collect my thoughts. I am thankful tho, staying busy is nice.

First today, I want to send out big prayers to the Duggar Family. They had baby 19 last night - she weighed 1 pound 6 Oz. They named her Josie. Ya'll know I am a huge fan of them because we share the same religion and I can relate. but no one should have to go through this, so our prayers are with them.

So now .. where to begin .. I think I last left off with the home situation here. Hmmm, I don't want to jump around and unless you are on FB alot you might be confused. So I will just start from with what I can remember.

Like I said it has been a crazy few weeks here, it has been just chaotic and run run run. BUT, to be honest it has gotten just a tad better. I think with the actions we had spoken of we both realized that it was really OVER, unless we did something  - and quick. So we have been talking alot and trying to muttle through the issues. So for now everything here is quieter and calmer and working better. As a matter of fact just last night Adam called me on the phone and says be ready when I get home ... he took me to a dinner and movie (Brothers). What a nice treat that was ! I don't think he has done that in like forever ! Anyway, it is taking time and getting better with prayer day by day.

It took alot on both our parts tho to realize what we wanted and where we should be, rather than what we did or where we where.  Does that make sence ? We have been reading this book called "Quiverfull"  (by Kathryn Joyce) that has helped us to reafirm some things we believe and helped us to realize other things we didn't want to believe as well.  Alot of you might disagree with some of my ways of thinking, but I know this is what is right for me and my family and our choice in life. I tend to have a bit of a big mouth and run of it ... it comes from my younger years and always being told to shut up, but as a christian wife that is not how I should follow my husband. Anyway, you get the point. But it took me a bit to find what my own issues were. The talking has certainly helped.

In other news .. lets see ... 

1) we went to Olive Garden one night, at Brittany's request for her birthday and patiently waited well over an hour and a half for our dinners. In turn we recieved our whole meal free and got a huge appology. What a blessing that was ! It isn't cheap to feed 5 kids and especially ones that like to eat italian !! :O)

2) Adam bought a dishwasher for me and will install it this weekend ! Can you say excited ?!?!?! OMGSH ! I will probably hug it ! ... and I am serious too ! I haven't had a DW since our other house and I was about to go insane !

3) Kinda bad news ... but I am remaining positive. We have cancelled our trip to Florida. :O( I know, I know ....The kids are rather bummed, but it was a choice we had to make for a couple reasons. First and foremost, our van is acting REALLLY weird - making odd clinking noises and such and needs to be worked on. If we spent the money to work it fully, we would have none much left to even go anyway .. then the matter of the family and working on our marrige. Adam has been working alot of overtime and needs hours given on days we would have been gone. Normaly at this time of the year they are not given .. so even though I sooooooo wanted to go, we will just do the holidays here and try to go then maybe in January or February instead. If the holidays are supposed to be about family, then I should make it as such.

I am okay with this, going to put up the tree this weekend and been in  quite the uncommon holiday mood, which usually never happens to me - especially after the last few years we have had. But still, the kids won't be spoiled, we aren't teaching/ doing Santa, but rather trying to focus on the real meaning of the holiday instead. It will be fun and I am certain that the kids will gain alot more memories instead of gifts this year !

4) We got just under 18 inches of snow the other day. It was crazy ! I hadn't seen that much in a lonnng time ! Everything was closed the day after, so everyone was home... for once that was kinda nice. Took the kids sledding and they had a blast. Didn't get many pix this time though, but they had a good time. I am not one for snow and cold, but I have been trying to be more positive so I am hoping my normal drearyness attitude won't rear it's ugly head till oh .. January ... Maybe !? lol. :O)

5) I got kinda lacsadasical over the last month with some of the kids schooling. So we have spent this last week playing catch up with it. Some parts of the Bible lessons were even hard for me so that was kinda hard to get through. But I am not a master Thealogin or anything. Piano lessons have been interesting and craft time is always nice for holiday things. Brittany has been a HUGE help too, so without it I would be totally lost !

6) I had such a horrible dream last night about Cameron. It is STILL haunting me all day today - so everytime I see him I have to hug him. I swear, why is it my dreams are so detailed and have to do with the loss of my kids ?! I am guessing that is my greatest fear ! Weird dreams though .. hmmm, usually only that happens when ... well.. I doubt it, even though my hormones have been on the really wonkybonker side for the last few weeks.

7) We hope to get the tree up this weekend and a few other things done too. It is going to be a hugely busy weekend here. .. I haven't bought one Christmas present yet, but will soon. I am kinda excited to find a few things they like, regardless if we do Santa or not I still get all happy about seeing thier faces when they get something they like !

8) Went to doctors... he wants to test me for something called " Ehlers Danlos" syndrome or something or other. I really haven't researched it much yet, so I know very little.

9) Adam is contemplating quitting his job and moving on to contracting again or something for a while. The company he keeps at work with all the guys going to and from Afganistan is very undesirable and he has come to the conclusion that it has great deal to do with the way he deals with it. He tends to be very influenced. I don't have issues with it really, I think it is a good descision and since the choas of our other house and van are done and over now, it won't stress me so much. Plus with Jordan graduating this next year he will have the help and that would be nice. I think Jordan would like that too.

10)  I almost forgot, we got rid of the dog we had. Brittany's friend has a huge farm and other dogs like that, so we did a swap. Although we havn't decided what to swap for yet. (She has Hedgehogs and Sugar Gliders or birds we can have) Anyway Nibby was peeing in the house and started biting Gracie all the time. We just coudn't deal with it anymore and had to make that decision. She seems to be doing well at her friends and since she is homeschooled as well she is there all the time with her. We have been going over about once a week to see her and all the other farm animals. The kids have really liked that !

 

Well, I really do have lot more to day, just am kinda out of time. Have to go to LaCrosse tonight and more running to get done .. laundry .. lunch .. cleaning up ... ya'll know how it is.

Hope ya'll are doing well and having a good December !! I will try to blog again as soon as I can.

 

Love and blessings to all of you !

TAMMIE