LITTLE MAN ...

*Advice needed *

Now, you'd think with 5 kids I would have this figured out by now, but actually to be honest with you, this is the first time that I have had to deal with an issue here ... let me explain:

CONVERSATION WITH MY 3 YEAR OLD; CAMERON,

He comes to me today (he don't talk much - but we know what he means) and taps on me - says "Mama" then points at my lap - points again at the baby which I was holding at that moment - then points at the couch ..... pauses a minute then points at himself and then at my lap.

Hmmmmm - can you figure out what he was trying to tell me ? He wanted for me to put the baby down on the sofa and for me to hold him in my lap instead.

Now - all of my kids are roughly three years apart - with the exception of one (unspoken matter - please) Thier ages are 16, 13, 10 and 3 1/2. So you'd think that when I had Jordan and Brittany was born I would have had to deal with this .... MyProblem ???? Can you guess ? I think it is a form of jealousy ..... none of my other kids EVER seemed to have problems like this and Cameron is having some issues.

As I sat to think about any changes he'd may have shown, I have noticed him being alot more crankier about the house over the last two weeks or so. I think that since he's realized that Gracie is staying put - he isn't that happy about it.

My gosh, I don't want to scar the kid for life - what should I do ???? Over the last few days we've played games with him, colored with him, read books to him - things we did before as well, but maybe now it is more - but it isn't working !!! He wants to scream "no" all the time and throughout the last few days has been throwing fits in a vain attempt to get things he wants. (never did this before) Now, I don't want to be too different, I don't want to for- go discipline all together - but I don't want to punish him unnessasarily either. I don't want to make him feel bad or feel that he isn't wanted around here .... do any of you know what I mean ? I feel pretty odd asking for some advice on this seeing that I do have 5 kids - but seriously, my other kids were never like Cameron and I have never dealt with this - everyone always got along well. Soooooooooooo - if any of you have any advice - can you please send it my way - I welcome any suggestions that may help. :O) THANK YOU.

~~~~ Ugh, now off that subject - I had a migrane most of the day today, but I actually got Gracie to sleep for more than 2 hours this afternoon and so I was able to get things done - you know - laundry, tidying up, taking out the trash ...okay not alot - especially by my own standards - but it was more than I have been getting done. Gracie just really likes to be held, plus I like holding her - so that makes things a little bit tougher to do around here. ~~~~

Today was cold, colder and windier than it has been in along time and guess what ?! I hate it !!!! How many more days till spring ??? Let me start my countdown. Why, oh why - can't we live in Florida - I heard it was still in the 80's there !!! THAT IS NOT FUNNY !!!! :o(

WITHDRAWL ...... Ok, it has only been a week and a half since the NASCAR season was over, but I am going through withdrawl here .... like a guy with football, that is me with NASCAR ... Grew up watching it - watch it throughout every week .... grrrr - I hate this time of the year - can you all tell ? DAYTONA - FEBRUARY - Gotta start a countdown for that too !

Christmas .... still not in the mood for it. My hubby wants me to be, but I am just really having a problem feeling Christmasy ... I don't want to hear the music, see the movies, or go to the store -especially to shop .... I know being scrooge isn't nice, but I really need to try to be better and accept the fact that what is - is ... and I have to make the most of it. I know what my head says, but for some reason the rest of me just isn't cooperating ! Still haven't decorated one bit, don't know if I even want to - kinda sad, I know.

Well, that is all I have to say for now, besides Adam insists on taking us out for dinner tonight and even though we shouldn't - I don't want to hurt his feelings. For some reason he has been exceptionally nice lately, sure - good for best friends, but something for sure must be up - happened last year too - then they sent him to Germany for a month, so I hope that isn't going to happen again. I hate that. (does he know something I don't?) Don't get me wrong, he is great - by any mormal hubby standards, but it is just unusual - he has been pampering me more than usual and it is starting to feel odd - I mean it is MORE than usual, so it' just weird ..... hmmmmm, what is the deal ? I don't mean to sound ungrateful, I am just not the kind of gal who is used to it or that likes to be pampered all of the time, I know, I know - weird - but that is me. More used to the tomboy aspects of life I guess - I am soooooo not girly.

Well hope that you all have a great night - don't know that I will be on tommorrow, have some running to do in town and the kids have a teacher day, so I will be busy. Take care and I will write again soon !

TAMMIE