Yup .. makes me brilliant to tell you all that !
For most of the day today I was bored out of my mind. I woke up late and did much of nothing. I had made sure yesterday I got extra things done so I could relax, yet I found the relaxing today - boring. I know I am complaining and I shouldn't.
Adam went hunting for a bit with a friend from work, the kids played games all day and Brittany went to visit a friend. Adam came back and he and Jordan watched the race. Football was on what seemed like every channel in the afternoon - so I watched the Duggars again then took a small little nap while the Brady Bunch was on.
Exciting - eh ? I know. I think I have myself to blame though. I mean seriously - if I could be more of a people person and not stay huddled up inside all the time maybe my life would be a bit more thrilling. I honestly don't know how some people do it. I try, but it is so hard for me.
Oh well, I guess some days are just that way. They do make the harder and more choatic days easier, even if by only a little.
Ah, in other news. I had a bad day though with food. :O( The hubby brought me home some Entemanns donuts ... they are just plain EVIL in a box. I ate more than I should have and now I am pretty unhappy about it. Why am I so weak ? and? why must them things be so evil ?
SIGH ... so moving on - alot of folks have been talking about Halloween and the Holidays, neither of which we are doing this year. I really need to talk to others that might feel the way I do about them because I feel alone. I know they are out there, but where ? So many just seem to think I am some freak as usual. Yeaaa, me the trendsetter... NOT !
I just think I feel -what I call - seasonal depression creeping in - or maybe I am just tired... either way I find that I am wanting more friends that think the way I think ... it is hard to "switch" from one group of people to another .. the world keeps wanting me to fall back into my old ways sometimes it seems like doing that might be easier- but then again no one ever said being Christian was supposed to be easy. I think if I ever do move it might be easier if I could find more people like me then. Does anyone even have a clue what I am trying to say ? GAH. Sometimes I just feel like no one does. I feel like I got alot to say sometimes but am not saying it right ....
Eh, whatever - I am blabbering and I got nothing . haha - goin to bed all - Goodnight !
I think people can understand what you are saying even if they don't "think that way". I understand your feeling of wanting to get back to the basics of the holidays, although personally for us that will not mean skipping trees and gifts and Christmas cookies. If that is what you want to do though, I understand and don't judge. Maybe there are people in church groups that you could link up with that would have people that feel the same way as you do. Sometimes though people that are not the same as you can understand and be good friends because they bring a different perspective on life, one that you can admire but not want, know what I mean?
ReplyDeleteSometimes Tammy you just need to exit your comfort zone and try something new. I have met some neat new people through Z, and have become really good friends with one of her friend's moms. I have also met people through the PTO and volunteering though the school. I know you homeschool, but aren't there support groups? Church groups? It is easy to meet people at work, and when we were in school it was easy, but as adults it gets harder, doesn't it? Sites like this make it easier, but distance makes it hard.
I hope you are able to take charge of your emotions and not let them take you down the road of depression. You are such a great person and a great mom, you just need to realize that in yourself. I know 2009 has been a crappy year in some respects....I can relate to that in a big way, but we need to just hang in there....things will get better. I have faith in that.
I've still never watched the Duggars. The thought of all those kids scares me. lol
ReplyDeleteI agree w/ Kattss!!
ReplyDeleteThank you Kat. :O)
ReplyDeleteKim... your pic is scaring me .. does that count ?! hehehe.
I can't believe the Duggars are on baby 19. are they ever going to stop having kids.
ReplyDeleteEveryone has their up and down days, don't worry about it. Tomorrow is another day .
I gave up trying to find a like minded tribe. I'm too different. I will never fit any mold, but my own. I have peace & enjoy the fact everyone else is different, and that is a beautiful thing!
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